Posts Tagged ‘Champagne’
A distant girl…
Wednesday was my brother’s birthday so Gavin and I decided to go to his house and spend some time with him, his wife and baby boy. We played with the baby, had a few drinks together, ate pizza, talked, played random xbox 360 games and watched a movie. I felt really bad when the night came to a close and my brother clearly wanted Gavin and I to stay the night or even just a little bit longer, but we had to go. He seemed really sad, but I promised we’d go back on the holidays to spend more time with him.
Thursday I spent the day practising pool with Alex and shopping with Gavin… nothing exceptionally interesting from what I can remember.
Friday evening I went to another Christmas party with Gavin. All the people there were 5 – 15 years older than me, but because I’m used to being around older people (my siblings) I didn’t feel out of place. I lost count of how many glasses of champagne I had and I ended up making good friends with one lady, her name escapes me. She started calling me ‘Little Sister’, hahah. Oh, I had an absolute ball.
The partner of the lady who hosted the party is a chef and he cooked stacks of the most incredible food I’ve ever eaten. Like, you know how you eat something delicious but after a while you sort of get over it? It wasn’t like that with this food. I couldn’t stop myself eating it. Then there was dessert! Far out… I’ll never forget that food, ever. You guys should be jealous!
So on Saturday I was pretty hung over, but I got up and went shopping with my mum. We had lunch together and all that, it was nice spending time with her.
I got in contact with one of my friends from primary school (the beautiful Blair, affectionately known as Belairsan) and we decided to meet up again and hang out for a while. We went down to the dam and had a really good chat about different issues and stuff… We severed contact about a year or so ago because she and my ex didn’t get along, but now he’s gone and I realised how much I missed her.
She wanted to meet Gavin so he came over and we had dinner and went swimming and all that fun stuff. They got along well which makes me really happy. My ex never really got along with my friends and I always thought it would be nice to have someone who actually made an effort to make friends with my friends.
I’ve since told all of my friends to be open with me about what they think about my partners, rather than pretending to like them just for my sake. I’ve learnt to be open with my friends about my relationships which, in my opinion, is of the utmost importance. There should be no reason to hide if you’re upset over an argument you’ve had with your partner or whatever, and it’s good to have the support and advice of other people. That way they can tell you if they think you’d be happier without that person, although sometimes I know it can be hard to listen when denial kicks in.
Saturday evening Gavin and I watched Seven Pounds. I highly recommend it. I found I could really relate to the main character; feelings of detachment from the world and the desire to go beyond all expectation to help people without repayment. I don’t feel obligated or anything like that, nor do I expect recognition. I just know what it feels like to feel helpless and alone and I don’t want other people to feel that way if I can do something to help prevent it. Basically, I care. A lot of people have told me things, especially recently, that they say they have never told anyone else before. I have a great amount of respect for that and appreciation for the trust people put in me.
This promotion of Gavin’s, while making me exceptionally proud of him, has also made me feel… hmmm, I can’t think of the word. I want people to be proud of me and my achievements like I see they’re proud of him, but the things I’m proud of for me are things that go unnoticed by the general population. Like, rather than receiving a work related promotion, I might have a stranger open up to me and tell me about their darkest secrets and suicidal thoughts and I’ll help them through it, no matter what it takes. It’s not something I can go and tell the world, but knowing I’ve made a world of difference to someone somewhere in the world is extraordinary. I want to make a difference in peoples’ lives. I’d like for people to remember me as a distant girl known as ‘DarkSlinky’ who guided them from the past to the future.
I went off on so many different tangents just then, in true SLINKY style!
Sunday and Monday were uneventful, although today Nicki replied to an e-mail I sent him. It was only a few lines but I was overjoyed to hear from him.
Oh! How could I forget? Today was Gavin’s first day and, by some astronomically unlikely coincidence, he happens to be working with someone from my clan; Fraternity of Valour. This is someone I haven’t met before, I completely forgot he lives in Brisbane and seriously, what are the odds that Gavin would just happen to notice he had a message on Facebook from someone in Fraternity of Valour? I’m looking forward to meeting him. I just can’t believe how small the world is sometimes.
Tomorrow Emma arrives in Australia. YAY!! I am SO excited.
<3 DarkSlinky.