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Today we had a big family barbeque.  I always love when we do because I get to see all of my siblings, nieces and nephews together in one place.  I feel bad though, because I woke up late and didn’t get to help Mum as much as I would have liked to.  She forgave me though, which was good.

The lunch was in honour of my brothers’ fiancée.  In June of this year she suffered a massive heart attack and we very nearly lost her.  It was a terrible thing for my whole family to experience.  Dad, Liam and I had to fly to Melbourne a few days after it happened (another story in itself), and unfortunately I didn’t receive as much emotional support as I should have.  Dad understood how I felt though and together we worried and missed the rest of my family until it was time to fly home.  I hope it’s not something that occurs in my family again.  Today was to show her that we appreciate her and we love her.  The neighbours also decided to stop in so our family could meet their new baby boy; today was certainly a celebration of life.

It was also a good opportunity for Gavin to meet the rest of my family.  It turned out to be a really lovely day and my siblings really seemed to like him, which makes me happy.  He’s a charming gentleman who clearly has my best interests at heart, and that seemed to really impress my brothers and sisters.  They want what’s best for me, and so do I!  I need a man who will treat me right and make me feel special.   I’m beginning to ramble, moving on…

After everyone left Gavin and I played some Team Fortress 2 and Left 4 Dead.  My gaming friend, Hayden, asked me if I’d like to go in with them in buying a Left 4 Dead 2 four pack and someone from Pants Party asked the same of a Borderlands four pack.  I didn’t plan to buy either game for a while, but the advantage of buying games in a group is that you get them a lot cheaper.  I decided to take the opportunity; why not?  I’ve been thoroughly enjoying life lately and want to continue to do so.  Not that I need games to enjoy life, but yay for games!

Tonight Gavin and I went over to Alex and Eevari’s house, saw Alex before he went to work, then we had some dinner and played pool.  You know, I’m really not too bad at pool for someone who sucks at it. Haha.

A few people have asked me if I’m in a relationship with Gavin but the answer as of yet is no.  I am interested in Gavin and I do like him, but I’m not ready for a new relationship yet.  Four years is a long time to have been with someone and I still need some time to focus on myself.  I’m really proud of the fact that I’m mature enough to recognise the sort of position I’m in and how best to approach the future.  The near future is looking to be full of hope and happiness, something I didn’t expect quite so soon but it’s certainly a pleasant surprise.

I’ve already spoken to him about it all so it’s not like I’m announcing these sorts of things randomly in my blog!  That would be an awful thing to do, haha.

I’ll upload a couple of photos from the Barbeque today. Enjoy!

Jayne, Dad and Madonna.

Brothers' Fiancée.

Crazy scientist hair!

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I have the most bizarre story for you.

A few weeks ago I went to my sister’s house and my Dad called me to tell me neither of my pet mice were moving.  I thought it was odd, I knew one of them was getting old and sick but the other seemed okay when I saw them earlier.  He asked if I’d like him to put them in the backyard, I said yes and thank you.  Anyway, recently I’ve caught glimpses of a mouse running around my house. I assumed it was feral and was going to set a mouse trap, until I noticed he was bigger than the average-sized feral mouse and orange rather than black; like the mouse I thought was healthy.  He was so skinny, I didn’t even recognise him.  I realised he was indeed my mouse when I was crouched next to the fridge and he came up to me, followed me around and then waddled over to his old cage when he saw it.  It was really quite sweet.  Unfortunately he doesn’t look to be in the best health and one of his legs is injured, but I’ll keep an eye on him and call the vet if he doesn’t improve soon.

Strange, hey?  My dad said he put them both up the very back of the backyard.  He was shocked to see one of them back.  A part of me wonders if he just wanted to get rid of them while I was gone for a few days, because my parents have never liked me having pet mice.  I’m not going to let it bother me though.  I’m just glad he’s back, and I hope I can nurse him back to health.

So yesterday my cleaning plans were interrupted once again, by my rescue mission.  I did manage to get some things done though.

In the afternoon Gavin came around with his computer so he could cheer me up by playing Team Fortress 2 with me into the night.  I needed cheering up because I had had a nightmare the night before.  His computer is still behind me; it’s my hostage.  The ransom is $200,000,000, although I haven’t actually told him that yet. Probably a good idea to, so he knows how much he has to pay off… bwahahaha!

We then stayed up until midnight to buy tickets to Big Day Out, which is in January.  Alex bought tickets for Lynnette, himself and me and Gavin bought himself a ticket.  I’m so excited about it!  I know heaps of people who are going.  I get the impression that my ex, Liam will be there.  As long as I don’t see him I don’t particularly care though.  By then I don’t think even seeing him will bother me too much.

Today I got up and went to my sisters to babysit but she wasn’t there; she had driven to my house because my niece was sick.  Haha.  It was an amusing situation.  She felt really bad about the whole thing, she had called me but I was driving so I didn’t answer.  I was glad to have a nice morning drive anyway, listening to Breaking Benjamin.  It ended up working out better anyway because when I got home I realised I really didn’t feel very well.

Alex came over in the afternoon to pick up my share of the Big Day Out money, I saw Eevari as well for a while.  I had quite a nice day.  The only problem was that because I wasn’t feeling really well I just wanted to curl up on the couch and watch a movie for the day.  I ended up having to go out and do things, I was just so tired.  Ah well, these things happen. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be feeling better.

Monique still isn’t talking to me; I sent her a message asking if she’d like to do something this weekend and she sent a rather cruel one back.  I know people will be wondering why she isn’t talking to me, I can’t tell you though because I don’t actually know.  I’m happy to continue to wait until she’s ready to talk to me again though.

I also sent Nicki a text asking if he’d like to do something tomorrow but he replied with “No.”  I think he’s angry at me for something too.  I have to wait for him to be ready to talk to me as well.  I miss them both; Monique and Nicki that is.  I want to be a good, loyal friend to them both but sometimes it really is difficult.

Why do I keep pissing people off without knowing why!?  Sometimes I wonder if it’s me; I don’t think it is though, in all honesty.

Drama, drama, drama.

Oh, my neighbours had a baby boy at approximately 3:00 this morning, so congratulations to them!

Apparently my eyes are piercing. Pierce, pierce, pierce!

Gavin has told me he doesn’t want to see any 4am posts so I think I’ll be a good girl and get an earlier night tonight.

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I haven’t posted a blog for a few days because frankly, I’ve been feeling like crap.  I’ll try cram it into a short blog because I am SO tired.  I actually started writing a blog on the 22nd but I ended up just giving up.  It began with, “Today was the 22nd, the day I’ve been dreading ever since I got dumped.  I woke up in a surprisingly good mood.  I felt motivated, hopeful and just like I could face the day.  I should have stayed in bed.”

Long story short, I made plans with Nicki and Eevari but Nicki ended up blocking me for a silly reason.  I tried to call him a few times and ended up in tears after I couldn’t get a hold of him.  We haven’t made amends as of yet.  My consolation was that I would still get to spend time with Eevari and then Monique later in the night.

Eevari and I went out for lunch and had a really nice time.  We came back to my place and I introduced him to Cowboy Bebop.  After a few episodes I noticed a message from Monique, stating that her boyfriend, Paul, had planned to cook her a special dinner and she wouldn’t be able to make it to my house.  Despite understanding that she needed to be there, I couldn’t help but feel upset and almost like I had been abandoned during my time of need.  This was simply one of those situations that couldn’t be helped though, Monique knows I love her. We can never be angry at each other for more than 2 minutes.    I quietly asked Eevari to leave because I knew I would end up in tears.

Sorry about kicking you out Eevari, I’m sure you understand though.

After a while I played some Team Fortress 2 with my nephew to cheer me up.  Alex tells me I did well as a heavy, but I was still feeling pretty down.  I didn’t play for long.  After I stopped playing Team Fortress 2 I got invited into a game of Left 4 dead; a game that Liam was in.  In hindsight, I shouldn’t have joined.  Things went downhill quickly and I ended up leaving in a temper, something I apologised to the people in the game for.

I then received more upsetting messages from both Nicki and Liam.  I had a bit of a spaz attack at Liam, which I later apologised for.  We haven’t really spoken since then so I don’t know how he feels about it.  Anyway, by this point I’m feeling like complete crap.  Seriously.  It was nasty.

I’d like to give a word of thanks to those who stood by me in my time of need.

Monique, Chad and Alex:  Whenever I look back on that horrible day, I’ll remember the support the three of you gave me.  I trust and love all of you.  Words simply can’t express my gratitude.  I only hope that you trust that in your time of need, I’ll be here.  Just say the word.

The next day, the 23rd, I was relieved that the 22nd was over but I was still feeling pretty down when I woke up.  I got wind of a family gathering being organised for Liam for his 20th birthday on Monday and felt incredibly upset because I probably won’t even see him for his birthday.  Of course I won’t be invited to family gatherings anymore, but I love his family and I miss them.

It upsets me to know that I won’t be the one he kisses when he touches the bottom of the cake, I won’t be there to simply hold him and say, “Happy birthday, honey,” just before I give him his gift.  I wonder if it would be harder to be the one to cut the cake and then to experience that moment where you expect to have someone to kiss, but then you remember you don’t anymore..  kinda like walking up the stairs and you think there’s another stair but your foot falls and you don’t expect it… Oh I’m going to make myself cry talking like this.  Moving on…

Through the day things got better. There was a dust storm over Brisbane so I spent the day reflecting, relaxing and eating dust.  Dad informed me that because my car is front wheel drive it won’t slide out as easily, so I’ve been SAFELY practising cornering and double-clutching.  I’m not actually sure if double-clutching does anything, but it’s fun.  In the evening Alex and I went to get Cold Rock, which was delicious, by the way.  I’m officially the genius ice-cream fiend.

Today was rather complicated.  I washed my car, took my nephew home and decided to stop in to visit Eevari on my way home because I thought Alex was at work.  I mean… not because Alex was at work, you know what I mean!  I wanted to stop in for a visit and it just happened that Alex was working today.  Anyway, our plan was to have some lunch and then go late night shopping.  Another long story short, I ended up having lunch with Alex, shopping with Eevari, watching Whose Line is it Anyway with Alex and then having a chat about Counter-Strike with Eevari.  It was pretty insane.

I think I’ll take the weekend off, I’m exhausted.

I’m wondering if I should remove people tags and just tag the subjects of my blog?  I’m always talking about people so the subjects sort of get left out.  Maybe my readers (if I have any) could let me know what they think? <3

Job, job, job, job job – coming soon!

Goodnight.

<3 DarkSlinky.