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I don’t want this to be a whinge-fest, but it’s going to be, unfortunately.  I just can’t believe how much is going wrong for me right now.

I’ve been having nightmares again, so I haven’t been sleeping well.  Last night was the first decent night’s sleep in a while, and even then I woke up halfway through the night and couldn’t stop coughing.  I’m surprised I didn’t wake Gavin up.

I’ve had this horrible cough for days.  I think it’s safe to say it’s a result of the sinus (or whatever it was) infection I had.  I probably caught it at Big Day Out last Sunday.

I also got really badly sunburnt at Big Day Out , despite putting sun cream on.  It was such a hot day that they had hoses spraying water out over the crowds to keep everyone cool, so I think all the sun cream was washed off.  On Wednesday my back was covered in blisters and a few days ago it started peeling.  It’s really quite disgusting.  Big Day Out was awesome though, so it was worth it anyway.

If you’d like a preview of what Big Day Out was like, there are a lot of pretty good clips on YouTube of different bands and stuff.  Muse was by far the best, though.  Here is a decent clip of them singing Stockholme Syndrome – Keep in mind I was up the front, just in front of the bigger screen on the right, which was also where the EPICALLY HUGE speakers were.  They played great songs.  I could feel the bass shaking every part of my body.  Delicious.

Unfortunately dermatitis has come up on my hands and scalp again, probably from stress.

A couple of days ago a big cut appeared on the inside of my gum (the side that’s under my tongue).  I suspect there may be a loose piece of bone under there (from when I had my wisdom teeth removed last year) that’s cutting through my gum.  I’ll have to go to the dentist to get it checked out if it doesn’t heal up.  I hope this cough goes away before then.  I don’t want to be coughing in the dentists face… it must be pretty gross being a dentist sometimes.

I’ve made countless attempts to retrieve my old mobile number, I still haven’t been successful.  It’s getting to a ridiculously frustrating level now.  I went as far as to submit a complaint to my phone company – Virgin – and I will definitely be posting my story on a few forums, although I won’t tell it here now.  It’s definitely getting its’ own rant.

Despite looking for a job, I can’t apply for anything until I get my number back because it’s my only direct point of contact apart from e-mail and I’m pretty sure employers aren’t going to contact me over the internet.  Not having a job and not attending university is giving me a sense of worthlessness and I feel really pathetic depending on my parents while I’m an adult.  I’m so financially strained at the moment too; it’s a terribly stressful situation.

Thursday was a good day.  I spent the morning cleaning Gavin’s car from top to bottom.  As a thankyou gift he took me out for dinner and then he bought me a pair of very expensive, leather, thigh-high, stiletto, Mollini boots I’ve had both my eyes on for a few weeks (I’m a lucky, lucky, lucky, lucky, lucky girl!!! >.<)

Boots to die for.

Thursday evening Alex came over and brought with him a Nintendo 64 game I’ve been looking for for years; Pokemon Stadium 2.  In most shops it’s worth $60 – $80 but he managed to get it for me for $45 which is great because I think the classic Nintendo 64 games are only going to increase in value now.  I found out my Nintendo 64 is worth up to $130.

Saturday morning I woke up feeling really under the weather after a bad nights sleep, luckily I had my wonderful boyfriend there to comfort me and give me sympathy.  He got out of bed and while I slept a few more hours he cleaned my house; bathroom, kitchen and lounge room before making a cup of lemsip for me to wake up to.  Thank goodness I have one less thing to worry about.

The rest of Saturday, Alex, Lynnette, Gavin, Nicki and I spent with Emma.  We hung out at her house for a while and had lunch at a nice cafe before it was time to travel to the airport to say our “See you laters.”  It was truly heartbreaking to witness.  Emma told us she was nervous and wasn’t ready to leave yet.  Everyone knew I would be upset so all their eyes were on me.  I couldn’t look at her for fear of bursting into tears, which I did as I watched her walking to the gate.  I hope I get to go see her in New Zealand this year, but oh, here comes the money issue again…

I’ve been really snappy.  I’m finding it increasingly difficult to trust people, whether they are friends or family, and I’m not exactly sure why.  This, in turn, makes me feel very alone, especially since I keep a lot of my troubles to myself.  I’m very good at putting forward a happy persona when it’s just not how I’m feeling.

I know it doesn’t seem all bad but it’s been a pretty rocky road and I just wish life would cut me a break at the moment.

The only thing I can really do is harden up and keep pushing forward; wait for my health to improve, see the dentist, sort out my phone number and then apply for jobs.  It’s important to focus on the positives, and I’ve definitely had a few days this week where I’ve been spoilt by my loved ones.

On a better note, Gavin spent this afternoon teaching me how to play Command and Conquer: Red Alert 3 and I really enjoyed it.  After a couple of failed games I managed to grasp the concept and got the ball rolling.  There was one point in the game that made me laugh…

Gavin:  “How are you going over there?”
Computer:  “Your enemy has been defeated.” (By yours truly!)
Jayne:  “Yeah, pretty good.”
Gavin:  “Oh, nice work.”

I also had a game with Gavin and Fen from Pants Party.  I think the boys found my noobness highly amusing.

Jayne:  “Oh, look!  There’s a cute puppy in my base!”
Gavin:  “He’s not on our team…”
Jayne:  “Oh, what?  Crap.”

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"Forget headshots, I aim for the NUTS!"

Yes, that is a bacon sticker on my head.

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The past few days have been interesting.  I couldn’t even tell you how much chocolate, candy, chips and donuts I’ve eaten.  I made sure I ate some fruit and meat today, so I don’t die.

Thursday night Michael came to stay with me for the night.  Nicki and Lynnette joined us for a while and we played Nintendo and ate heaps of stuff.  Chicken. Hahaha.  I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with Michael, hoping to spend more time getting to know him again in the future.

Friday night Monique and Alex came over for a little while, also to play Nintendo and eat heaps of crap, but NOT CHEESE!  Ahahahahahahahaha. <3 you wifey.

Tonight Nicki has come to stay with me.  We spent the day drawing, playing Nintendo and now we’re just hanging out while I do my blog, watching movies.  He’s trying to make me join a dating site, but it’s stupid!  NO MEANS NO NICKI!

Today we went to the shop and there was this couple sitting there eating each other’s faces for like.. an hour.  Nicki and I kept walking past them doing things like speaking really loud or just glaring at them.  In the end we sat nearby so nicki could draw the Hungry Jacks corner of the shop and I could glare at them until they left.  We also got 12 donuts for $5 – woohoo!

I’ve been sleeping heaps lately, I think it’s because I’ve been feeling down.  I go to bed and just pass out, and then despite sleeping well, I find it so hard to wake up in the morning.  I woke up at 8.30 this morning and just kept sleeping on and off until like 1pm.  I hate it, makes me feel so lethargic.

Today was a bit upsetting.  Liam and I have gone to the Riverfire together every year for the past 3 years, until this year obviously.  This year is also the last year the F-1 11’s will fly over Brisbane.  Their flight path is straight over my house so Nicki and I went outside to watch it.  It was rather emotional for me, and symbolic I guess.

Also one of my pet mice is looking very sick.  I called Liam and we decided we’ll take him to the pet shop tomorrow to have him checked.

Liam is at a party tonight at some random girls’ house.  I’m worrying about him, hoping he’s okay.  I’m not comfortable with it, but that’s not my place anymore or anything.  If we were still together I’d be saying to myself, “This is your chance to trust him, to give him space” but I don’t have that comfort because he’s free of me; he can do what he wants to.  I guess my main consolation is telling myself this is my chance to give him space, maybe he’ll see just what a strong person I can be.  I’m finding it difficult not to text or call him just to check that he is okay.  Just another piece I need to mourn and let go of.

Nicki and I watched View from Above and Bad Girls earlier, now we’re watching Thirteen.  My dermatitis is itchy.

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I saw the doctor on Wednesday about my festy scalp; he said it’s either psoriasis, dermatitis or a fungus.  I freaked out when he said fungus, but he explained that it’s been discovered that dandruff is actually caused by a fungal infection and everyone gets dandruff.  Haha.  The doctor told me to get special shampoo and this other stuff with ‘Elocon’ in it.  He said it’d relieve the itching and pain, and it does! Yay!  If it’s not better in a few weeks I’ll go back to see him again.

Today I cleaned and practised piano, like usual.  I saw Liam for a while which is always nice.

Tonight I played Team Fortress 2 with Pants Party, had a ball going around wearing my newly obtained hat – the Halo.  I did really well in two games, both in reserved Pants Party servers.  Note my kill to death ratio in the first screenshot.  I’m definitely improving.

Team Fortress 2.

Team Fortress 2.

And there is something wrong with my head.

Brain fail.

A few nights after Liam moved out, I went to have a shower.  I closed the shower door behind me only to discover there was a huntsman waiting to greet me.  I ran from the bathroom, soaking wet, and called him in a blubbering mess.

Since then, every time I have a shower I check in the bathroom for spiders, and every time I go to bed I check in my bedroom for spiders.

Except tonight.  Tonight I forgot.

You can probably imagine where this story is going.  I got in the shower, looking forward to washing my hair with my new, special shampoo.  I didn’t check.  Why did I forget to check!

Yes, there was a huntsman on the shower

door.  The poor thing had quite a slow death, as the only bug spray I could find was aeroguard and there’s no way I was getting close enough to that thing to squish it.

Check out how long my hair is.  Screenshot courtesy of my dear friend, Chad.

Hair length.

Thank you Chad!

Time to check for spiders in the bedroom, haha.

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