DarkSlinky

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I got a formspring account.  I don’t know what possessed me to do so, or its reasons for possessing me against my will.  Perhaps it was an intelligent alien lifeform… who knows.  Anyway, it’s here now and here to stay.  My question to you is,
do you dare..?

I finally got hours at work this week.  I didn’t get any work for two weeks before I left for New Zealand and then I returned home to find they’ve hired a charming group of younger, cheaper employees.  I’m here to tell you that the amount you pay for your staff represents the quality of work you’ll get.

This week I’ve been called in numerous times to cover for staff who can’t fill their shift or just don’t bother showing up.  If you put reliable staff on to start with, you won’t have this problem.  If the same thing happens next week I’m going to look for another job to sustain me until I hopefully return to university next year.

I’m sick and I’m still going to cover for someone today.  Customers better be nice to me or heads will roll.  I have some feral sort of headcold – nothing bad, but enough to irritate me with the sneezing and body aches.

Snags’ computer has died, which in turn means my gaming life is dead.  It feels too cruel to sit here playing games in front of him while he slaves over his computers carcass.  Instead I half-sleep on the couch watching movies, occasionally patting his back in a supporting manner.  This can’t go on forever though, Pokémon Black and White comes out this week and I will allow it to eat my life.

Time to prepare for work… Happy, happy, joy, joy.

<3 DarkSlinky.

I return, aliveish and well enough.

Well, kind of anyway.  You could say I’ve been away on ‘business’ in the vaguest possible way… (Can’t you tell I love being mysterious?)  The point is that I didn’t forget you guys I’m here now to write stuff about stuff like I used to do.

I’m still the same person, but at the same time, the person I was was a very different person to the person I was before that… If you know what I mean.  I still play games when I can, still have trouble sleeping, people still think I have an English or Canadian accent, but at the same time, I’m growing up quickly and when I look in the mirror now I feel like I’m looking at someone else.

Long story short; since my last post I arrived home from Perth followed closely by Snags who has now lived with me for a month or so.  I had 2 weeks off work for jury duty but I’m back at work again.  There are also a number of very personal and emotionally draining issues playing out that I can’t discuss for a number of reasons (yes, this is one reason I haven’t been around).  It’s been a seriously intense emotional rollercoaster.

On the one hand, I’ve never been happier or more at peace with another human being.  I realise it’s still early stages but he makes me look forward to every day where I get to see him, talk to him, hold him, kiss him…  He makes me feel special every day.  I consider myself to be very lucky to have the love and support of this man.  Living with him has been very helpful and it feels like it wouldn’t be right living somewhere without him.  (Having someone move in with me is another reason I haven’t been around – it’s a lot of work, you know!)

On the other hand I feel isolated and alone as I fight an internal battle that only I can fight, but I will struggle to the very end and beyond if that’s what is required.  Most days I think the emotional strain is so great that my brain shuts off to it in order to remain sane and I only feel numb and withdrawn.  Other days are overwhelming and exhausting, but the continued support of family and friends as well as lack of full-time work or university stress really do lessen the burden.

I had my first lucid dream yesterday morning.  It was terrifying.  I was curled up on Snags’ chest when it felt as though I was physically falling and I only realised that that’s what falling asleep feels like after I pulled out of it.  So I willed myself to ‘fall’ again.  It took a while but eventually I pulled it off and somehow I was able to keep my conscious mind awake while still falling in to a sleep deep enough to dream.  I knew I was dreaming and I could control my actions.  I dreamt I was a young girl and for some reason the room I was dreaming of terrified me.  I was afraid to look in a mirror I knew was to my left and when I noticed a young boy standing in front of me I had an overpowering urge to wake up.  I had difficulty doing so, which was scary, but I got there eventually.

I find it incredibly interesting but I’m kind of afraid to do it again because it felt so close to touching some really sensitive nerves, so to speak.

In case you’re wondering, jury duty wasn’t exciting.  I got called in twice, the first day I couldn’t go and the second day I was excused.  At least I know what it all involves now.

I realise I’m probably not making a whole lot of sense either.  I haven’t been sleeping well and it’s incredibly late at the moment.  I guess I should go try and get some sleep.

I’m still keen to vlog too….

<3 DarkSlinky.

Haha, I didn’t realise that ages back my ex, or “the ex” as he calls himself, put a comment on my blog that required my approval for the public to read it.  He wishes to inform you good people of the fact he’s a bum around the house, he’s put on weight, his universe doesn’t revolve around me and I should grow up and get over myself.

Epic lol.  I kid, I kid!  I did take bits out of context, but you have to admit, it is a LOT more amusing that way, and possibly more truthful.  As the awesome Ray William Johnson would say, I’M JUST SAYIN’.

Nah, seriously, he wants you to know that, in regards to the blog entry entitled ‘Sweet Homicide‘, I interrupted his game, he wears singlets when he bums around the house and he was NOT flexing to impress me.  No, not at all.  Nuh uh.  Oh, and of course, his universe doesn’t revolve around me (universes don’t revolve at all, noob).  Well that I believe. I mean, it’s not like he still combs through my blog a year later to check what I’m up to or anything, and feels the urge to comment when I say something that may relate to him in some way, right?  …….. I lol.  Perhaps I’m not the one who should “grow up” and “get over themselves.” I mean, I never mentioned his name anywhere.  Is it just me, or is it a little arrogant to assume he’s my only ex?  I could have been talking about any of them. =)

All this is so trivial though, honestly.  These are the things that give me amusement, make me laugh.  People are funny things.  It gives me something entertaining to write about, so I’m certainly not complaining!

Speaking of people and the annoying things they do; I have a friend who recently got himself a girlfriend after 10 million years (so he implies, I think it was only about a year or two though) and has completely ditched me!  I do not believe it was because of the girl, I know her and I love her (perhaps a little TOO much…) but what the hell?  I would never have expected this from one of my close friends.  He’s away on a holiday so I haven’t spoken to him about it yet but I guess I will eventually.  I don’t think he reads my blog but if he does and if he knows it’s him I’m talking about, WHAT IS GOING ONNNN?!

In other news, one of my friends bought me Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare 2 because I’ve wanted it so badly for ages.  So far, I think it’s a great game.  I’ll be hyperactive in multiplayer and obsessing over it for quite a while, I imagine.  I also bought a stack of games when Steam had them cheap so I’m going to have to update my games list again.  Starcraft 2 comes soon too, YAAYYY! >.<

Today has been an awesome day though, seriously.  This morning I had a bunch of orchids (one of my favourite flowers, aah!) delivered to my door with the sweetest note from the man I refer to as my ‘Perth husband’, also known as Snags.  We clicked when we first met in person here in Brisbane and, now that I’m single again, things have continued to progress.  You may have noticed a change in my attitude recently and it’s purely because I’m hopeful and happy again and, like my close friends, he brings out the best in me.  I cannot wait to join my Perth friends in their home city for satay party times. (Note: ‘Satay’ as an adjective is not my word. It belongs to Snags, but I’ma use it anyway!)

<3 DarkSlinky.