DarkSlinky

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I’ve had an incredibly eventful week.  This is probably going to end up as another exceptionally long blog, so I’m going to drink a cup of tea while I write and chat to two of my good friends; Mike and Max, just to set the scene for you. Ha!

I guess a good place to start would be where I left off last blog.  ‘Blog’ is such an annoying word.  Can anyone think of a better word for it?  It reminds me of some kind of muddy waterhole that would swallow your car when you least expect it.  I must be relating it to ‘bog,’ haha.  Like, “My car got bogged.”  Anyway!

On Tuesday I taught my niece piano like I usually do.  Her last two lessons haven’t been as productive as her first few which is a little disheartening, but I’m not going to let it discourage me.  I remember having off days when I was learning piano as well.  Speaking of which, and slightly off topic, I want to get back into piano lessons again next year.  I’m planning on recording some more songs to upload to my YouTube account.

Tuesday evening I stayed at Gavin’s house because he had Wednesday off.  I always take pleasure in spending time with his family and I’m pretty sure they’re enjoying getting to know me better as well.  I love win, win situations.  This is where my ‘happy-high’ began, that is, for a few days there I felt on top of the world; like I could achieve anything.  It was a good feeling but that feeling never lasts forever… as you’ll see.

Wednesday was Gavin’s day off and what a day it was.  It began with a visit to Gavin’s friends’ new house so I could meet him.  He’s a really nice, easy-going sort of character.  I’ve had the privilege of playing Team Fortress 2 with him a few times before.  He does photography and owns a camera I would love to have.  SLR pleeeeasseee.. <3<3

Lunch time we went to another friends’ unit in the city for a BBQ to celebrate the completion of his university degree (I think?).  Unfortunately it was raining and we had to have an ‘indoor BBQ,’ not that it made it any less enjoyable.

After lunch we pulled in to Gavin’s driveway and just as I was about to get out of his car, he put his hand on my knee, looked me in the eye and told me he’s in love with me. HEART MELLLTT! This deserves its’ own blog but I thought it definitely deserves mentioning here as well. I realised ‘Love’ isn’t something I’ve tagged on my website before, so it’s very special.  <3

Wednesday evening was another of Gavin’s family get togethers, this time for his Grandmothers birthday.  The ladies in Gavins family can all make delicious desserts.  If things go well between Gavin and I, I’ll definitely have to learn to cook these dishes to pass on to my daughters, to continue the tradition sort of thing.

There was a 30-year-old piano there and his family requested I play for them.  Usually I politely decline no matter how much people insist, but this time I thought, why not?  I love to play and people like to hear, so I did it!  I took a few requests and played a few different songs, though not the whole way through.  They all seemed to enjoy it, especially Gavin’s Grandfather.  I was a lot less shy around his cousin’s this time as.  I really think I fit in with his family; they’re all lovely, not to mention hilarious.

On Thursday Gavin and I spent the evening playing games; Left 4 Dead 2 and stuff.  It was an uneventful day until later in the night when I got into an argument with Monique.

It began, shamefully, on Facebook, where I was discussing games (specifically, Left 4 Dead 2) with one of Pauls’ friends.  For those who don’t know, Paul is Monique’s boyfriend who has a very passionate dislike for me.  His dislike for me stems from a number of months ago when he was posting links to a sick website on my website and when I asked him to stop, he denied he was the one doing it.  He doesn’t have any proof of it being someone else and I have the proof it came from his IP so rather than admit it like a man he adopted the “You’re evil and I hate you” attitude.  If you’d like a sample of his behaviour, you can see a classic example  here.

Anyway, back to Thursdays proceedings.

I added this friend which upset Paul.  He removed me from Monique’s Facebook page and told her she was not allowed to re-add me until I remove his friend.  I felt like I was dealing with a hostage situation.  Monique explained to me why it was upsetting him, all silly reasons.  Something about me invading his space, like, what, he’s not invading mine every time he calls me names on there?  I explained to Monique how I thought it was silly and how I’m not going to let him get his way just because he’s acting like a child.

She then starts getting angry at me for trivial issues we’ve either already resolved or completely random things that have never been a problem before.  I could go on to explain them but they’re not important and it’s nearly 4:30am so if you do want me to explain I will later, but the fact of the matter is she was covering the real issue; Paul was controlling her to get his way.  Anyway, I told her I have enough issues of my own to deal with without things like this and I blocked her.

I thought I would be upset on Friday after what happened with Monique, but I woke up feeling full of life and energy.  The day began with a trip to the tip with my Dad to get rid of some old tyres and branches.  Going anywhere with my Dad always turns into an adventure full of mischief and giggles.  We ended up pushing the tyres down a hill on to the tyre pile while no one was looking.  ‘Tyre racing’ we called it.  Then we went to the shop, bought a big box of Bundaberg Rum and sat around eating, drinking and playing games for the rest of the night.  At this point I was absolutely stoked.  I felt like I was glowing.

Saturday (yesterday considering it’s 4:30am on Sunday) Gavin and I planned to do sweet nothing because we’ve been away from home for so many weekends or just doing this and that through the week.  Felt pretty damn good, but my mood has dropped back to a mellow-ish level.  I enjoyed feeling stoked, guess it couldn’t last though.

Gavin and I have spent every day together since we re-met on the 1st of October.  That’s about 66 days.  What puzzles me is that neither of us is sick of the other; it feels completely natural, like we’ve known each other for years.  Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s great.  I just find it interesting.

The other thing is that I’m obsessed with these two songs at the moment, thanks to Max, who has the best taste in music I’ve ever come across.  We’ve had quite a few discussions about music and different bands and stuff now.  Oh yes, the songs:

Apocalyptica – Quutamo.
Röyksopp – Happy up here.

Enjoy.

<3 DarkSlinky.

I think my ex will stop bothering me after today, thank goodness.

So the story begins with a message I received on Saturday from my ex-boyfriend asking if he could pick up the fishing gear he left behind.  I replied saying no, because I was out and wouldn’t be home until the following day.  He asked if I could have it ready Monday, I replied saying no because I’m flat out all week and that I would get everything ready in the following week and contact him then.  He replied telling me that he needed it this week, and to stop being ‘difficult’ and ‘ridiculous’, clearly not realising it’s his fault he failed to contact me earlier, and not mine.

Something you have to understand is that my ex has always had his way growing up, so if he doesn’t get his way he’ll stomp his foot and whinge and whine until he’s satisfied.

I wouldn’t back down.  I continued to say that I simply didn’t have time and he would have to wait. He wouldn’t back down either, so I began to ignore his messages, which gradually became more frequent and abusive.  I was telling the honest truth, too, about being busy all week.  Friday night I was in the city, Saturday I was with family, Saturday night I was at Gavin’s and Sunday I spent the day with Monique and Eevari. I was then meant to be Nanna-sitting full time from Monday to Thursday and then going away with Mum and Dad this Friday to visit family in Bundaberg.

He’s lucky my Nanna told my Mother she didn’t trust me to take care of her and my Mother decided on Sunday to ask one of her friends to stay at our house for the week (another story for me to tell!), because if she hadn’t then I certainly wouldn’t have had the time to be organising things he left behind.  He’s also lucky Gavin was around and knew what to look for.  Gavin found his fishing rods and got them out for me and on Monday I took them to my ex’s friends’ house because I certainly didn’t want him coming to my house after the abusive messages he had been sending me.

This wasn’t the end of the drama, though.  I received a message on Monday afternoon asking if that was it and where was the rest of the stuff, specifically, a tackle box.  I replied saying there was nothing else here, but of course, instead of listening to reason he immediately assumed I was just out for revenge or something.  By this point he had been harassing me from Saturday to Monday and I was really starting to get ticked off.  I called him on Tuesday.

Jayne:  “You must have taken it with you.”
Ex:  “I didn’t take it.”
Jayne:  “Well it’s not here.”
Ex:  “Then where is it??”
Jayne:  “How would I know?  Maybe you left it at your brothers.”
Ex:  “Pretty sure I’d know if I left it there.”

At this point he starts hurling fowl language at me.

Jayne:  “DON’T you speak to me that way!”
Ex:  <Silence, obviously taken aback>
Jayne:  “Come and see for yourself, it’s not here.”
Ex:  “I will then!”
Jayne:  “When can you be here?”
Ex:  “Tomorrow at 5.30, after work.”
Jayne:  “I’ll let you know if I’m free.”
Ex:  <Scowls and hangs up>

I let Gavin know what was going on and he told me he didn’t want me to be here alone with my ex,  so he and his friend would make sure they were here with me.  Having them here made the whole experience a lot easier.  I was really concerned and nervous about the whole thing so having people here to distract me and calm me down was very comforting.

So, this afternoon the three of us set up our computers so we could play the recently released Left 4 Dead 2 while we waited for my ex to arrive. As you know, my internet is speed capped and Gavin’s friend was getting bored while we waited for all of our accounts to sign in, so he decided to fish through the desk he was sitting at.  What should he find but a small, green tackle box.  We all stared, shocked.  After so much drama and so many messages and, on my part, tears, an overly curious friend just happens to stumble across the item at the centre of the drama.  How could it be?

Gavin’s friend sat where he could keep an eye out for my ex, who arrived soon after 5.30pm.  Just so you know, Gavin has a very deep voice.

Ex:  <Knocks on door>
Friend:  “You have a visitor.”
Gavin:  “Come in.”
Ex:  <Hesitates and looks concerned before entering>
Gavin:  “Is this what you were looking for?” (The small, green tackle box).
Ex:  “That’s mine, but the one I’m looking for is bigger.”
Gavin:  “Okay.”

So Gavin politely took my ex outside and helped him look for his bigger tackle box.  I’m so unbelievably happy with the way Gavin handled the situation.    Here he was, faced with his girlfriends’ bitter ex-boyfriend of 4 years and he remained cool and level-headed as well as assertive and protective.  I’m very proud to be able to call him my man.

Gavin’s friend stayed inside with me to keep me company, but I couldn’t stand knowing my ex-boyfriend and current boyfriend were alone together so I went outside too.  My ex made a point of pretending I didn’t even exist, something I expected.  Gavin tells me my ex scowled and swore and sulked while he looked and eventually gave up, saying “I’ve got to get out of here,” before storming off to his car and forgetting the rest of his things in the process.  I ran them out to him, because I am NICE!  Haha.

The impression I got is that he doesn’t have a shred of a soul or the warmth of life left in him.  He’s merely a robot in a cold and purposeless existence, trying to act like a big tough guy by deepening his voice and swearing, but he’s really not fooling anyone but himself.  For those who don’t know, a few years ago he was a conservative Christian, the kind that’s polite and doesn’t use offensive language or you know… smoke or get drunk or anything.  I never thought he would be this way but one thing that’s certain in life is that people will disappoint you.

A part of me is glad that Gavin has had the opportunity to see what I had to put up with for all those years.  Now he can understand why I’m having a difficult time trusting him fully.

Story over!

Yes, my Nanna told my Mother she doesn’t trust me to take care of her.  I’m very hurt and offended, to be honest, but there’s not much anyone can do considering she’s an 89 year old woman.  I don’t know why she thinks I wouldn’t take care of her and it makes me wonder if my family thinks I wouldn’t be able to either.  I’m not sure how to approach or deal with this sort of situation.  It’s possible that she’s just trying to be difficult because she doesn’t want my parents to go away without her.  I know it sounds awful but it’s definitely a possibility.  I haven’t given her any reason not to trust me so it would make sense.  I guess I just have to accept it and move on.

A few other things I realised I’ve failed to mention are firstly, that I got my hair cut a number of weeks ago.  I didn’t get it cut short but I had about 10cm – 12cm taken off and it’s certainly made a difference to how easy my hair is to maintain, haha.  It doesn’t get knotty so easily now, thank goodness.

The other thing I failed to mention is just how romantic Friday night was!

Gavin received an invite +1 to his friends’ dress-up birthday party and asked me if I would like to go with him.  The party was being hosted at a hotel where another friend works so we managed to get a room there ridiculously cheap.  It was a 4 and a half star hotel so it was really fancy.  I dressed up as  a pirate wench and Gavin dressed up as an Egyptian trader.  Such an odd couple.  Next time we get invited to a dress-up party we’re so going as Tarzan and Jane.

Anyway, when everyone had arrived in the hotel lobby we all went up to the entertainment room where the party was being held.  Gavin and I walked in together and the first thing I saw was the view; oh it was breath-taking!  Out of four walls, three of the walls were floor-length windows displaying a stunning panoramic view of Brisbane city.  I spent the entire night admiring the beauty of the city and reflecting on how lucky I am that such a difficult time in my life has resulted in opportunities such as this.

Also, like I said earlier, I’m going to Bundaberg for the weekend with my parents to visit family.  It should be good to get away for a few days, it won’t be particularly exciting.  I’m really hoping to go down to Tweed Heads for a weekend soon as well.

I officially reached 1,500 words.  I think this is my longest post, haha!

Sorry for rambling but ah, well, what are you going to do??

Sweet dreams world!

<3 DarkSlinky.

What have I been doing?

I can’t remember! I need to start writing these things down.

Oh yes. Tuesday I spent the day cleaning, and in the evening I’m pretty sure I went to Gavin’s to watch The Matrix and The Matrix Reloaded.  There had been a storm in the afternoon, for some reason storms put me in the mood for matrix style movies. I don’t know, I’m weird, okay? Haha.

Wednesday afternoon Gavin took me to meet some of his friends at a place in the city. We had a few drinks and played pool. I failed so badly, but it was fun.  It was an awesome place, I’m looking forward to going back there and hopefully doing better at pool, plus drinks were cheaper there than they are in other places.

Today I got up earlier and went over to my sisters’ place to spend some time with her and her daughter.  As I left she gave me a hug and a kiss which was a very pleasant surprise. My day certainly started out well, and only got better!

After visiting my sister, Monique and I went on incredibly-crazy-happy-fun-times adventures.  These adventures included getting a tyre changed and shopping! Oh, so much shopping.  Our shopping adventure isn’t even over yet.  Okay, so I was trying on this pair of black, slip-on shoes and they fit perfectly so I took them to the counter. The lady at the counter told me they had a 2 for $25 sale, so I grab a red pair in the same size. When I got home I realised that while the red pair say they’re the same size as the black ones, they’re actually a few sizes bigger. Moral of the story is always check the size of the shoe! Luckily I can exchange them, so I’ll do that sometime soon.  I also bought 2 dresses, one is a $109.95 cocktail dress marked down to $10; I kid you not! Bargain! Oh yes, I got a cute Hello Kitty bag too. Mew.

Tonight I was fortunate enough to receive pool lessons from Eevari and Alex while Gavin installed Starcraft Battle Chest for me as a surprise for when I got home.  Such a sweetie!  Next time I play pool in the city I’ll surprise them all with my new found skills, thanks to Alex.

I played some Left 4 Dead today, which kind of surprised my gaming friends because I told them I wouldn’t be playing it again.  I remembered all the reasons why I enjoy playing it though so I think I’ll get back into it.  Left 4 Dead 2 and Borderlands are in my Steam list ready to download; I’m so excited.  It’s only a few weeks until they’re released.

You know what words are good words? Hellishly and bodacious. Alex just said them to me and I thought to myself, “… Those are noteworthy words.”  Yep.  So I stole them.

Time for a shower. I got a 14 day free trial of World of Warcraft so I feel dirty.

<3 DarkSlinky.