DarkSlinky

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I haven’t posted a blog for a few days because frankly, I’ve been feeling like crap.  I’ll try cram it into a short blog because I am SO tired.  I actually started writing a blog on the 22nd but I ended up just giving up.  It began with, “Today was the 22nd, the day I’ve been dreading ever since I got dumped.  I woke up in a surprisingly good mood.  I felt motivated, hopeful and just like I could face the day.  I should have stayed in bed.”

Long story short, I made plans with Nicki and Eevari but Nicki ended up blocking me for a silly reason.  I tried to call him a few times and ended up in tears after I couldn’t get a hold of him.  We haven’t made amends as of yet.  My consolation was that I would still get to spend time with Eevari and then Monique later in the night.

Eevari and I went out for lunch and had a really nice time.  We came back to my place and I introduced him to Cowboy Bebop.  After a few episodes I noticed a message from Monique, stating that her boyfriend, Paul, had planned to cook her a special dinner and she wouldn’t be able to make it to my house.  Despite understanding that she needed to be there, I couldn’t help but feel upset and almost like I had been abandoned during my time of need.  This was simply one of those situations that couldn’t be helped though, Monique knows I love her. We can never be angry at each other for more than 2 minutes.    I quietly asked Eevari to leave because I knew I would end up in tears.

Sorry about kicking you out Eevari, I’m sure you understand though.

After a while I played some Team Fortress 2 with my nephew to cheer me up.  Alex tells me I did well as a heavy, but I was still feeling pretty down.  I didn’t play for long.  After I stopped playing Team Fortress 2 I got invited into a game of Left 4 dead; a game that Liam was in.  In hindsight, I shouldn’t have joined.  Things went downhill quickly and I ended up leaving in a temper, something I apologised to the people in the game for.

I then received more upsetting messages from both Nicki and Liam.  I had a bit of a spaz attack at Liam, which I later apologised for.  We haven’t really spoken since then so I don’t know how he feels about it.  Anyway, by this point I’m feeling like complete crap.  Seriously.  It was nasty.

I’d like to give a word of thanks to those who stood by me in my time of need.

Monique, Chad and Alex:  Whenever I look back on that horrible day, I’ll remember the support the three of you gave me.  I trust and love all of you.  Words simply can’t express my gratitude.  I only hope that you trust that in your time of need, I’ll be here.  Just say the word.

The next day, the 23rd, I was relieved that the 22nd was over but I was still feeling pretty down when I woke up.  I got wind of a family gathering being organised for Liam for his 20th birthday on Monday and felt incredibly upset because I probably won’t even see him for his birthday.  Of course I won’t be invited to family gatherings anymore, but I love his family and I miss them.

It upsets me to know that I won’t be the one he kisses when he touches the bottom of the cake, I won’t be there to simply hold him and say, “Happy birthday, honey,” just before I give him his gift.  I wonder if it would be harder to be the one to cut the cake and then to experience that moment where you expect to have someone to kiss, but then you remember you don’t anymore..  kinda like walking up the stairs and you think there’s another stair but your foot falls and you don’t expect it… Oh I’m going to make myself cry talking like this.  Moving on…

Through the day things got better. There was a dust storm over Brisbane so I spent the day reflecting, relaxing and eating dust.  Dad informed me that because my car is front wheel drive it won’t slide out as easily, so I’ve been SAFELY practising cornering and double-clutching.  I’m not actually sure if double-clutching does anything, but it’s fun.  In the evening Alex and I went to get Cold Rock, which was delicious, by the way.  I’m officially the genius ice-cream fiend.

Today was rather complicated.  I washed my car, took my nephew home and decided to stop in to visit Eevari on my way home because I thought Alex was at work.  I mean… not because Alex was at work, you know what I mean!  I wanted to stop in for a visit and it just happened that Alex was working today.  Anyway, our plan was to have some lunch and then go late night shopping.  Another long story short, I ended up having lunch with Alex, shopping with Eevari, watching Whose Line is it Anyway with Alex and then having a chat about Counter-Strike with Eevari.  It was pretty insane.

I think I’ll take the weekend off, I’m exhausted.

I’m wondering if I should remove people tags and just tag the subjects of my blog?  I’m always talking about people so the subjects sort of get left out.  Maybe my readers (if I have any) could let me know what they think? <3

Job, job, job, job job – coming soon!

Goodnight.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Alex came over last night; we shared a bottle of wine and played Team Fortress 2, Left 4 Dead and Mirrors Edge. Hilarious times, although apparently I annoyed the entire TF2 server with my SUPER LOUD MICROPHONE thanks to someone’s tinkering!  I fixed it today though. Clever cookie, oh yeah.

Today I cleaned up and took care of my nanna, and then I went to visit Sam.  I spent the whole time annoying everyone on his MSN list and watching him play Halo 3 and Guitar Hero: World Tour, because I HATE XBox 360 controllers for multiplayer games!  Raaar!  Keyboard and mouse, FTW <3.

I wrote my resume, finally.  Well, most of it. It needs perfecting yet while I continue to job hunt.  I would rather be out in the wild hunting rodents than job hunting.  Grow my own vegetables and fruit, whatever. I wouldn’t have my precious computer though so it’s just not an option.

Tonight I absolutely smashed everything in Team Fortress 2. I was so proud of myself. I got the ‘Fire Chief’ achievement for pyro and broke 100 points with heavy, reaching a total of 118 points.  I took a screenshot, check it outtt.  Note that I actually had more kills than deaths this time. I’m definitely improving.

Team Fortress 2.

Tomorrow I finally get to see the doctor about the dermatitis on my head and hand.  Hopefully it’ll go away soon and I can be at peace!

Another day, another adventure.

Bring it on!

<3 DarkSlinky.