DarkSlinky

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So I haven’t updated like I promised to and honestly it’s mainly because my laptop has neither “L” nor “K” buttons (I’m using an onscreen keyboard for them… so painful), half of it is randomly in Japanese and it bluescreens whenever it’s particularly inconvenient.  It has had a good, long-ish life.  Now I just think it’s on its’ way out.  It is affectionately known as my “Noob Computer”.

I have been in Perth for two and a half weeks now and in that time I have realised this is just the break I needed after what occurred with my ex.  I don’t like to sound corny (I always do anyway, don’t I?) but I fell in love with a wonderful man as soon as I stepped off that plane and saw him there waiting for me (Aheee I’m a hopeless romantic! >.<).  Of course, that man is Snags.  We’ve spent the last month getting to know each other and, frankly, I can’t get enough of him.  So far there have been absolutely no conflicts, except that I refuse to let him do housework in my home if he’s working full time and he insists on sharing the load (so trivial and cute… -Swoon-).  He will be moving to my home in Queensland over the next few months which makes both of us very happy.

Snags wasn’t the only person at the airport either.  There were about 7 friends there waiting for me despite the fact parking is expensive, my plane didn’t land until 12:30am and there was a chance my flight would be delayed due to heavy fog.  There were more people waiting at a 24hr restaurant to meet me too.  I felt so very special.  From Pants Party I have now met (and this is more for my reference than anything else) PP Queensland; X1 , Prince Barin, Verty, Mcbaine, Mosse, KyePie, Necromancer, and PP Western Australia; Snags, Fen, Murdats, Gaz, Eagz, Darkr, Timmeh, Shocklanced, Synapz, Ace of Spades, Siby, and Senn.  I’ve made a lot of other Perth friends too, and I’m yet to meet more from Pants Party.

Coming to Perth has made me realise how very little I miss in Brisbane, and how little in Brisbane misses me.  At first it was kind of upsetting but I realised it’s just the reality and I have no choice but to accept it.  I’m thinking about moving to Perth but it probably won’t be for a few years yet, if anything.  I feel as though I still have unfinished business back home and Snags is happy to move there with me so everything seems to be panning out nicely.

I sorted things out with that friend of mine that I mentioned in my last blog.  It was a simple misunderstanding and nothing serious, which I am very glad for.  While in Perth I’ve also managed to clear up a few other miscommunications with friends in Brisbane and help a few other friends with love dramas and the like.  I am quite pleased with myself and feel better about going back there now.

I seem to have slipped in to another pattern of insomnia and nightmares again.  I don’t sleep well and when I do sleep I have dreams and nightmares that are so real I wake up believing they have occurred.  I told a friend about it and he suggested I read up on and try lucid dreaming.  To start with, this will involve me having a letter written on my hand to remind myself to question my reality and writing down the dreams I have as soon as I remember them.  So I’ll try it and see if I can learn to control my dreams.  I’m very excited and interested to see what the outcome will be.

As a side note; why does everyone think I have a British accent just because I speak correctly?!  Gaarrhh!!  No matter where I go everyone asks me about it! >.<

Maybe I’ll start vlogging, just for teh lulz… >:3

<3 DarkSlinky.

(P.S. DarkSlinky is a nightmare to type without “L” or “K”.  I become DarSiny…)

The past few months have been quite difficult for me and there’s nothing that happens in the day that I wish to discuss publicly, so I shall continue to write about my recent series of vivid dreams.

I dreamt I was standing in the downstairs room of my neighbours’ house.  It was set up exactly as I remember it from when I was little; with a bed in the corner, TV on the bench and a number of large cupboards and dressers around the room.  Warm sunlight was pouring in to the cold room through the blinds.  A friend of mine, Alan, was standing there with me, looking into my eyes as he confessed his eternal love for me.  My heart felt incredibly warm but I told him I wasn’t ready for another relationship.  I leaned forward and kissed him before leaving through the front door of the house.

I was then at another friend’s house, but the house was similar to a house another friend of mine used to own.  I was standing in the lounge room in silence, absorbed by my own thoughts as I watched the darkness of night outside.  The three friends who live in the house were standing in the kitchen discussing some serious matters that didn’t involve me, so I decided I would have a shower before going to bed.

I walked into the bathroom, turned on the hot water in the shower and stripped off all my clothes with the bathroom door still open.  I stood there watching my reflection in the mirror as steam began to fill the room and I thought about how proud I was of my body and about how I didn’t care if anyone saw me.  I then heard two of my friends announce that they were going to bed which was in the room past the bathroom so I quietly closed the bathroom door, intentionally leaving it unlocked, thinking deviously that my third friend might decide to join me in the shower.

I then woke up.

<3 DarkSlinky.

I’ve had an incredibly eventful week.  This is probably going to end up as another exceptionally long blog, so I’m going to drink a cup of tea while I write and chat to two of my good friends; Mike and Max, just to set the scene for you. Ha!

I guess a good place to start would be where I left off last blog.  ‘Blog’ is such an annoying word.  Can anyone think of a better word for it?  It reminds me of some kind of muddy waterhole that would swallow your car when you least expect it.  I must be relating it to ‘bog,’ haha.  Like, “My car got bogged.”  Anyway!

On Tuesday I taught my niece piano like I usually do.  Her last two lessons haven’t been as productive as her first few which is a little disheartening, but I’m not going to let it discourage me.  I remember having off days when I was learning piano as well.  Speaking of which, and slightly off topic, I want to get back into piano lessons again next year.  I’m planning on recording some more songs to upload to my YouTube account.

Tuesday evening I stayed at Gavin’s house because he had Wednesday off.  I always take pleasure in spending time with his family and I’m pretty sure they’re enjoying getting to know me better as well.  I love win, win situations.  This is where my ‘happy-high’ began, that is, for a few days there I felt on top of the world; like I could achieve anything.  It was a good feeling but that feeling never lasts forever… as you’ll see.

Wednesday was Gavin’s day off and what a day it was.  It began with a visit to Gavin’s friends’ new house so I could meet him.  He’s a really nice, easy-going sort of character.  I’ve had the privilege of playing Team Fortress 2 with him a few times before.  He does photography and owns a camera I would love to have.  SLR pleeeeasseee.. <3<3

Lunch time we went to another friends’ unit in the city for a BBQ to celebrate the completion of his university degree (I think?).  Unfortunately it was raining and we had to have an ‘indoor BBQ,’ not that it made it any less enjoyable.

After lunch we pulled in to Gavin’s driveway and just as I was about to get out of his car, he put his hand on my knee, looked me in the eye and told me he’s in love with me. HEART MELLLTT! This deserves its’ own blog but I thought it definitely deserves mentioning here as well. I realised ‘Love’ isn’t something I’ve tagged on my website before, so it’s very special.  <3

Wednesday evening was another of Gavin’s family get togethers, this time for his Grandmothers birthday.  The ladies in Gavins family can all make delicious desserts.  If things go well between Gavin and I, I’ll definitely have to learn to cook these dishes to pass on to my daughters, to continue the tradition sort of thing.

There was a 30-year-old piano there and his family requested I play for them.  Usually I politely decline no matter how much people insist, but this time I thought, why not?  I love to play and people like to hear, so I did it!  I took a few requests and played a few different songs, though not the whole way through.  They all seemed to enjoy it, especially Gavin’s Grandfather.  I was a lot less shy around his cousin’s this time as.  I really think I fit in with his family; they’re all lovely, not to mention hilarious.

On Thursday Gavin and I spent the evening playing games; Left 4 Dead 2 and stuff.  It was an uneventful day until later in the night when I got into an argument with Monique.

It began, shamefully, on Facebook, where I was discussing games (specifically, Left 4 Dead 2) with one of Pauls’ friends.  For those who don’t know, Paul is Monique’s boyfriend who has a very passionate dislike for me.  His dislike for me stems from a number of months ago when he was posting links to a sick website on my website and when I asked him to stop, he denied he was the one doing it.  He doesn’t have any proof of it being someone else and I have the proof it came from his IP so rather than admit it like a man he adopted the “You’re evil and I hate you” attitude.  If you’d like a sample of his behaviour, you can see a classic example  here.

Anyway, back to Thursdays proceedings.

I added this friend which upset Paul.  He removed me from Monique’s Facebook page and told her she was not allowed to re-add me until I remove his friend.  I felt like I was dealing with a hostage situation.  Monique explained to me why it was upsetting him, all silly reasons.  Something about me invading his space, like, what, he’s not invading mine every time he calls me names on there?  I explained to Monique how I thought it was silly and how I’m not going to let him get his way just because he’s acting like a child.

She then starts getting angry at me for trivial issues we’ve either already resolved or completely random things that have never been a problem before.  I could go on to explain them but they’re not important and it’s nearly 4:30am so if you do want me to explain I will later, but the fact of the matter is she was covering the real issue; Paul was controlling her to get his way.  Anyway, I told her I have enough issues of my own to deal with without things like this and I blocked her.

I thought I would be upset on Friday after what happened with Monique, but I woke up feeling full of life and energy.  The day began with a trip to the tip with my Dad to get rid of some old tyres and branches.  Going anywhere with my Dad always turns into an adventure full of mischief and giggles.  We ended up pushing the tyres down a hill on to the tyre pile while no one was looking.  ‘Tyre racing’ we called it.  Then we went to the shop, bought a big box of Bundaberg Rum and sat around eating, drinking and playing games for the rest of the night.  At this point I was absolutely stoked.  I felt like I was glowing.

Saturday (yesterday considering it’s 4:30am on Sunday) Gavin and I planned to do sweet nothing because we’ve been away from home for so many weekends or just doing this and that through the week.  Felt pretty damn good, but my mood has dropped back to a mellow-ish level.  I enjoyed feeling stoked, guess it couldn’t last though.

Gavin and I have spent every day together since we re-met on the 1st of October.  That’s about 66 days.  What puzzles me is that neither of us is sick of the other; it feels completely natural, like we’ve known each other for years.  Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s great.  I just find it interesting.

The other thing is that I’m obsessed with these two songs at the moment, thanks to Max, who has the best taste in music I’ve ever come across.  We’ve had quite a few discussions about music and different bands and stuff now.  Oh yes, the songs:

Apocalyptica – Quutamo.
Röyksopp – Happy up here.

Enjoy.

<3 DarkSlinky.