Second pregnant man.

So, let me see if I understand this correctly.  Thomas was a woman who changed to a man, had two children to a woman, and is now having a third child to a woman who is now claiming to be a man.

Forgive me for being slightly confused.  I find myself worrying not only about the welfare of the unborn child and his siblings, but about the parents too.

I like to think I’m a fairly open minded person.   I don’t have anything against male changing to female, female changing to male, male with female, male with male, female with female, etc.  I don’t even mind female-turn-male with female and then with female-turn-male, but if I find it confusing at my age, how on Earth are they going to explain it to those poor children, even when they grow older?

I also find it kind of offensive that a ‘man’ can claim to have babies.  If you wanted to have a baby, why did you change to a man in the first place?  And if you really were a man, how the hell can you carry a baby?

In my opinion, either you’re a woman carrying a baby, or a man who can’t.

In other news, the cut in my mouth is healing, the sunburn is fading, I’ve been sleeping better, my resume is looking sharp and I got free credit for harassing my phone company every day.

I still have the feral cough, but it’s starting to get better, and I CAN use it to make a scene when I walk past smokers.  “Oh! *choke* I’m sorry! *cough* Allergies!”  I know, it sounds a little cruel but, honestly, I find smoking to be extremely unattractive in a lot of ways including smell and, well, it just looks ugly.  Besides, I enjoy messing with the public… especially in elevators.

You know, I really don’t know how I started liking Slipknot.  Their music used to disgust me.  I guess it was the same when I discovered System of a Down.  I heard ‘Forest,’ thought it was pretty good and things grew from there.  I’ve liked ‘Duality‘ by Slipknot for a few years, and recently I’ve started to like some of the other songs that I can relate to, like ‘Wait and Bleed‘ and ‘Everything Ends.’  You’d never guess my choice of music or my hobbies by looking at me.

Today I told Gavin I felt strange because I was crocheting and listening to Slipknot, which is funny, because a ‘slipknot’ is a type of knot you use in crochet.  He said I am the strangest girlfriend he’s ever had, and he loves it.  Achievement unlocked! -Frantic-

Also, I think we should all have a moments silence for Spirit, the rover stuck on Mars.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Through the night I had a dream where I found out Liam had moved over to New Zealand and I was really upset, so I called him (in the dream).  He was skiing with Lloyd, he told me he was having the best time which made me hysterical because I thought he was rubbing it in my face.  He then said to me, “Just listen to me for a sec.  I booked a guest room here at the ski resort so you can come and stay with me.  I want you to be here with me forever,” and I was just over the moon.  Then of course, I woke up to reality.

So, I woke up missing Liam like crazy.  Not a good way to start the day.

In my head at the moment rolling around is… well let me show you my thought process, the neverending circle of doom.

Is he really moving on from me?  Should I really move on from him?
Maybe I should close the door to him, open it to others.
Maybe I should close the door to others, leave it open to only him.
Or should I close all doors, or maybe open all doors?
I need to move on from what we had, so we can make something new…
I loved what we had, but things changed. This is what we need for things to get better.
But that’s not letting go of him, that’s letting go of what we had…
Can you really just ‘restart’ a relationship like that?
Is it going to work?  Where will we end up?
Is he letting go of me, or of what we had?  Should I really move on from him?

And around I go.  Jeez, I’m thinking about all of this WAY too much, but how do you stop thinking about it?  Haha, re-reading my thoughts just makes me feel ridiculous.  Actually makes me laugh.. XD

Why can’t I read the futuuuuuuuuuure!

Liam bought Garry’s Mod for him and myself today.  He made me a Companion Cube car.  It was very cute, cheered me up.  I feel a lot better after my little write-rant thing today.

I’m getting ready to go to Madonna’s for a few nights.

<3 DarkSlinky.

After everyone had left me and Nicki had a fortune cookie each.  It went like this:

Jayne:  “What does yours say?”
Nicki:  “Remember your mother’s advice.”
Jayne:  “What’s your mother’s advice?”
Nicki:  “I don’t know… what does yours say?”
Jayne:  “All your hard work will soon pay off.”

Then we laughed for quite a while.  Hahahaha.

Moral of the story, I totally need to work harder.  Stresssss.

I didn’t sleep last night.  Like, not even a little bit.  Not a wink.  It’s madness!  So I’m feeling rather tired today.  Very tired in fact, I should get some sleep soon.

Oh yes, speaking of today – I had a wonderful day!  Liam and I firstly went to visit his sister, her husband and her three beautiful children.  We then went to Liam’s place to make home-made pizzas and as a surprise he took me to a nearby secluded little beach-type-thing for a stroll and a chat.  It was so beautiful.  There weren’t many lights around so a lot of stars were visible, and I love astronomy.  I was able to pick out one of the dark clouds that are visible from earth with the naked eye, though I’m not sure exactly which one it is.  I’ll have to check sometime.  After that we watched the first half of the Hogfather.  Excellent movie, I’m looking forward to seeing the second half.

What else.

Oh Liam took this photo of Mars and I tonight, I thought it was really cute.  She was very relaxed so she was happy to lie back in my arm, haha.

Jayne-Louise and Mars

<3 DarkSlinky.

I got to see Liam before he went to work.  We ate Oreo’s and chocolate custard while he unlocked some characters on Super Smash Bros: Melee on GameCube.  I wasn’t much in the mood for playing but had a lot of fun watching.

I then went to meet «PP» X1, who I will now call Alex, because he is no longer just a random internet gamer friend.  I discovered he has the same monitor and headset as me, that is, a BenQ E2200HD monitor and Creative Fatal1ty headset.  Both are fantastic.  He’s also the same height as me and has a crazy-ass computer in a teeny tiny case.  It was rather interesting when his younger brother entered the room, his reaction being, “IS THAT A GIRL?!”  Hahaha, classic.

I got back home at about 7:30pm to find my honey-bunny-Liam-baby waiting for me.  Alan (also known as Catsmith) came over as well; we watched anime and ate apple pie and ice cream from maccas.  Deliciouuuus.

SERIOUSLY!  If you ever get the chance, ask for an APPLE PIE and SOFTSERVE IN A LID.  Then eat them together.  You’ll thank me for it.

Liam and I then went up to Clear Mountain to spend some time together.  It was truly wonderful, cuddling up, listening to music and watching the city lights for a while.

Now I am going to have a cup of tea and cuddle my puppy, Mars, for a while before bed.  Unless she decides to be a snob and ignore me, like she’s doing.  Hahah!

Goodnight!

<3 DarkSlinky.