DarkSlinky

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It’s raining.  Sometimes I wonder if there is something larger than life watching over me.  The rain soothes me, and it just so happens to be what I need in this moment.

I feel very taken for granted, though I guess that’s partially my own fault for telling people I’ll be here for them no matter what.  I’ve always believed love should be unconditional, but maybe that’s not a healthy way to look at it.  Maybe you should love with the condition that, in your opinion, you’re being treated right.  Sometimes people make mistakes and forgiveness must be given, but what if they’re not asking for it?  Do you forgive anyway, or simply forget them and move on?

There is a point to my strange ramblings.  A few of my close friends have taken to nitpicking at my personality and the things I do, criticizing bits and pieces without justification.  It hurts me deeply.  There are things about them I certainly don’t like, but I’ll take the good and the bad and love every piece of them.  I don’t expect them to be perfect, and I certainly don’t want them to change, yet I feel as though they expect me to be perfect.  Seems unfair to me.

Up until now I’ve taken their nitpicking as reflections of their own insecurities, so I brushed it aside and let it be.  Tonight I decided to tell them how I feel, that I’m hurt and I think it’s unfair.  How they take it is up to them.

Yesterday I had a really lovely day.  I went shopping in the city with some friends, had lunch, celebrated a friend’s birthday, met up with more friends and played pool, stuff like that.  We spent the whole day laughing together and I felt warmth in my heart.  (I’ll upload photos when I’m no longer speed capped).

One of my friends from yesterday was behaving strange today, acting like I’ve screwed up when I have no idea what I’ve done wrong.  To be honest I don’t think he himself knows what I’ve done wrong.  Maybe he just needs someone to take his frustration out on, but why should it be me?  I have enough worry and frustration of my own to deal with.

I’ve found a really awesome word to describe me.  ‘Scatterbrain.’ I think it’s one of the things about me that annoys people.  Sometimes I’ll hear what they say and respond to them, but I immediately forget or get distracted by something else.  I don’t do it on purpose but people can be frustrated or offended by it.

I need a shirt that says “Caution:  Scatterbrain present.  Connection to reality may be lost without warning.”

On a better note, Gavin asked me on Friday if I’d like to go see Mao’s Last Dancer with him at the movies.  I accepted, and when we got to the cinema he surprised me by taking me through to the Gold Class section of the theatre.  It’s very expensive but a really good experience; delicious food, comfortable lounges, alcohol (woo!), etc.  The movie was really good too, I’d highly recommend it.  It shows what life is like in China, even today.  I feel so special.  Thank you for a memorable night, Gavin. <3

Today I went underwear shopping with mum.  We had a great time.  I then spent the afternoon relaxing in the pool.  It’s been a long time since I felt at home like that in our pool, I’m not sure why, but today was fantastic.  The water was so warm and soft… soft?  I don’t know.  I think that’s what I mean, haha.

Tomorrow I’m changing our phone and internet plan so I’m not sure how long I’ll be without internet.  Hopefully it won’t be too long.

Wish me luck with the setting up of my new internet!

Kthx.

<3 DarkSlinky.

I haven’t updated in a while because I’ve been so busy.  I’m pretty tired so I’ll try to keep it short, although last time I said that it ended up with a ridiculously long post.  We’ll see how it goes anyway.  I’ve been on the go for 18 hours straight now, so I’m pretty tired.  Oh, and for those of you who don’t know, FTW stands for ‘For the win’, which is a geek term meaning something is epically good.  I’ve certainly had a few really good days.

Friday night Gavin took me out for dinner and chocolate buffet at a fancy restaurant in the city, followed by movies at his place.  Seriously, that chocolate buffet contained the most delicious desserts I have ever tasted, like, ever.  You just wouldn’t believe how unbelievably luscious they were!  I also had the opportunity to meet some of Gavin’s friends, all of whom were fun and warm-hearted.  It was a beautiful night, the kind I don’t think I’ll ever forget.  We’re officially calling it a ‘date’, which is very exciting for me.

Saturday I went to Gavin’s again to see another old friend of mine, Jeff, who was visiting from down the coast.  We just hung out for the afternoon playing Halo (forget which one?) and watching movies.  It was good to see Jeff again.

Saturday night I took Dad to his friends’ 60th birthday party.  He needed a designated driver, Mum didn’t want to go and I was keen to spend a night out with him, so it was a win, win, win situation.  I saw another friend of mine from years ago at the party, his name is Paul (no, not the Paul who hates me, haha).  We sort of grew up together but lost contact once we both moved on to high school.  Getting in touch with all these old friends has been fantastic; so many happy memories to reminisce over and even more to create.

Sunday Eevari and I had lunch together and spent some time just hanging out.  Sunday evening Gavin brought his laptop over so I could teach him how to play Team Fortress 2.  He’s learning quickly, no doubt he’ll soon be kicking my arse at it!

I just realised I saw Gavin on Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.  Now he’s back at work so no lanning for a while.

Today I went to babysit my beautiful niece, Emily, for the morning.  I had so much fun; hopefully I’ll be able to babysit her on a weekly basis from now on.  At one point she fell over and started to cry, so I picked her up to cuddle her and she snuggled into me, it was SO cute.

I had lunch with Madonna and then went to visit Alex and Eevari.  We just hung out for the afternoon, played Team Fortress 2 (I got an achievement for Eevari!), I won at pool, and then we had dinner and watched V for Vendetta.  The two of them are at home for a few weeks without their parents so I might have to go over there and cook dinner for them one night, haha.  Useless boys! (Kiddinnnng!)

It certainly seems as though a lot of guys are interested in me at the moment.  I’ve never felt so flattered before, however I do realise I need time to move on from Liam and recover from the relationship we had, because I still feel as though I miss him.  I’ve decided to give myself approximately 6 – 12 months to recooperate and find myself in all this chaos.  All of these men are wonderful in their own special ways and I’m really looking forward to getting to know each of them better.  I only hope if I get along particularly well with one man that the others won’t feel as though I’ve lead them on, because I care about all of them.  I think it’s too soon to be thinking about that anyway.  All I can do is be open, honest and supportive, always.

I’m in a much better mood and clearer state of mind at the moment.  I think I’ve been moody for the past few days.  I get frustrated and cranky easily and sometimes I feel like crying for no particular reason.

Anyway, I have a headache again.  It’s definitely time for food, shower, and sleep.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Today was so much fun.

So there’s this guy I was seeing years ago, when I was 14 years old.  Gavin is his name.  He was 18 at the time and things became awkward because of the age difference, so it didn’t work out.  He kinda disappeared on me, which really upset me at the time but when I think about it, I would have done the same thing.

He apologised to me today for disappearing, I said I understood, which I do.  Made me feel really good that he wanted to say he was sorry for it all.  We hit it off really well and after going out for coffee (and tim tam delicious thinnnng..) he ended up installing Windows 7 for me on my computer.. yay!  We then went out for dinner (yummm BMT) and to see Surrogates, which was quite a good movie.  The robots freaked me out though.

During the time we were apart I became a gamer and a car fanatic.  He’s a gamer himself so I think he was rather impressed.  I noticed he was very subtly testing my knowledge about computers, like asking questions about my GPU and mentioning I now have DirectX 11.0 to see how I would react.  I think I really surpassed his expectations when he mentioned his friend was at Brendale, and I was like, “At MSY?” which is a computer shop.  He just gawked at me. Haha.

I love chocolate, I love bacon, and I love Chermside cinemas.    I had a really lovely time, and I hope he did as well.

Cheers to good people and happy times.

Thank you, Gavin!

<3 DarkSlinky.