DarkSlinky

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It’s raining.  Sometimes I wonder if there is something larger than life watching over me.  The rain soothes me, and it just so happens to be what I need in this moment.

I feel very taken for granted, though I guess that’s partially my own fault for telling people I’ll be here for them no matter what.  I’ve always believed love should be unconditional, but maybe that’s not a healthy way to look at it.  Maybe you should love with the condition that, in your opinion, you’re being treated right.  Sometimes people make mistakes and forgiveness must be given, but what if they’re not asking for it?  Do you forgive anyway, or simply forget them and move on?

There is a point to my strange ramblings.  A few of my close friends have taken to nitpicking at my personality and the things I do, criticizing bits and pieces without justification.  It hurts me deeply.  There are things about them I certainly don’t like, but I’ll take the good and the bad and love every piece of them.  I don’t expect them to be perfect, and I certainly don’t want them to change, yet I feel as though they expect me to be perfect.  Seems unfair to me.

Up until now I’ve taken their nitpicking as reflections of their own insecurities, so I brushed it aside and let it be.  Tonight I decided to tell them how I feel, that I’m hurt and I think it’s unfair.  How they take it is up to them.

Yesterday I had a really lovely day.  I went shopping in the city with some friends, had lunch, celebrated a friend’s birthday, met up with more friends and played pool, stuff like that.  We spent the whole day laughing together and I felt warmth in my heart.  (I’ll upload photos when I’m no longer speed capped).

One of my friends from yesterday was behaving strange today, acting like I’ve screwed up when I have no idea what I’ve done wrong.  To be honest I don’t think he himself knows what I’ve done wrong.  Maybe he just needs someone to take his frustration out on, but why should it be me?  I have enough worry and frustration of my own to deal with.

I’ve found a really awesome word to describe me.  ‘Scatterbrain.’ I think it’s one of the things about me that annoys people.  Sometimes I’ll hear what they say and respond to them, but I immediately forget or get distracted by something else.  I don’t do it on purpose but people can be frustrated or offended by it.

I need a shirt that says “Caution:  Scatterbrain present.  Connection to reality may be lost without warning.”

On a better note, Gavin asked me on Friday if I’d like to go see Mao’s Last Dancer with him at the movies.  I accepted, and when we got to the cinema he surprised me by taking me through to the Gold Class section of the theatre.  It’s very expensive but a really good experience; delicious food, comfortable lounges, alcohol (woo!), etc.  The movie was really good too, I’d highly recommend it.  It shows what life is like in China, even today.  I feel so special.  Thank you for a memorable night, Gavin. <3

Today I went underwear shopping with mum.  We had a great time.  I then spent the afternoon relaxing in the pool.  It’s been a long time since I felt at home like that in our pool, I’m not sure why, but today was fantastic.  The water was so warm and soft… soft?  I don’t know.  I think that’s what I mean, haha.

Tomorrow I’m changing our phone and internet plan so I’m not sure how long I’ll be without internet.  Hopefully it won’t be too long.

Wish me luck with the setting up of my new internet!

Kthx.

<3 DarkSlinky.

What have I been doing?

I can’t remember! I need to start writing these things down.

Oh yes. Tuesday I spent the day cleaning, and in the evening I’m pretty sure I went to Gavin’s to watch The Matrix and The Matrix Reloaded.  There had been a storm in the afternoon, for some reason storms put me in the mood for matrix style movies. I don’t know, I’m weird, okay? Haha.

Wednesday afternoon Gavin took me to meet some of his friends at a place in the city. We had a few drinks and played pool. I failed so badly, but it was fun.  It was an awesome place, I’m looking forward to going back there and hopefully doing better at pool, plus drinks were cheaper there than they are in other places.

Today I got up earlier and went over to my sisters’ place to spend some time with her and her daughter.  As I left she gave me a hug and a kiss which was a very pleasant surprise. My day certainly started out well, and only got better!

After visiting my sister, Monique and I went on incredibly-crazy-happy-fun-times adventures.  These adventures included getting a tyre changed and shopping! Oh, so much shopping.  Our shopping adventure isn’t even over yet.  Okay, so I was trying on this pair of black, slip-on shoes and they fit perfectly so I took them to the counter. The lady at the counter told me they had a 2 for $25 sale, so I grab a red pair in the same size. When I got home I realised that while the red pair say they’re the same size as the black ones, they’re actually a few sizes bigger. Moral of the story is always check the size of the shoe! Luckily I can exchange them, so I’ll do that sometime soon.  I also bought 2 dresses, one is a $109.95 cocktail dress marked down to $10; I kid you not! Bargain! Oh yes, I got a cute Hello Kitty bag too. Mew.

Tonight I was fortunate enough to receive pool lessons from Eevari and Alex while Gavin installed Starcraft Battle Chest for me as a surprise for when I got home.  Such a sweetie!  Next time I play pool in the city I’ll surprise them all with my new found skills, thanks to Alex.

I played some Left 4 Dead today, which kind of surprised my gaming friends because I told them I wouldn’t be playing it again.  I remembered all the reasons why I enjoy playing it though so I think I’ll get back into it.  Left 4 Dead 2 and Borderlands are in my Steam list ready to download; I’m so excited.  It’s only a few weeks until they’re released.

You know what words are good words? Hellishly and bodacious. Alex just said them to me and I thought to myself, “… Those are noteworthy words.”  Yep.  So I stole them.

Time for a shower. I got a 14 day free trial of World of Warcraft so I feel dirty.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Today we had a big family barbeque.  I always love when we do because I get to see all of my siblings, nieces and nephews together in one place.  I feel bad though, because I woke up late and didn’t get to help Mum as much as I would have liked to.  She forgave me though, which was good.

The lunch was in honour of my brothers’ fiancée.  In June of this year she suffered a massive heart attack and we very nearly lost her.  It was a terrible thing for my whole family to experience.  Dad, Liam and I had to fly to Melbourne a few days after it happened (another story in itself), and unfortunately I didn’t receive as much emotional support as I should have.  Dad understood how I felt though and together we worried and missed the rest of my family until it was time to fly home.  I hope it’s not something that occurs in my family again.  Today was to show her that we appreciate her and we love her.  The neighbours also decided to stop in so our family could meet their new baby boy; today was certainly a celebration of life.

It was also a good opportunity for Gavin to meet the rest of my family.  It turned out to be a really lovely day and my siblings really seemed to like him, which makes me happy.  He’s a charming gentleman who clearly has my best interests at heart, and that seemed to really impress my brothers and sisters.  They want what’s best for me, and so do I!  I need a man who will treat me right and make me feel special.   I’m beginning to ramble, moving on…

After everyone left Gavin and I played some Team Fortress 2 and Left 4 Dead.  My gaming friend, Hayden, asked me if I’d like to go in with them in buying a Left 4 Dead 2 four pack and someone from Pants Party asked the same of a Borderlands four pack.  I didn’t plan to buy either game for a while, but the advantage of buying games in a group is that you get them a lot cheaper.  I decided to take the opportunity; why not?  I’ve been thoroughly enjoying life lately and want to continue to do so.  Not that I need games to enjoy life, but yay for games!

Tonight Gavin and I went over to Alex and Eevari’s house, saw Alex before he went to work, then we had some dinner and played pool.  You know, I’m really not too bad at pool for someone who sucks at it. Haha.

A few people have asked me if I’m in a relationship with Gavin but the answer as of yet is no.  I am interested in Gavin and I do like him, but I’m not ready for a new relationship yet.  Four years is a long time to have been with someone and I still need some time to focus on myself.  I’m really proud of the fact that I’m mature enough to recognise the sort of position I’m in and how best to approach the future.  The near future is looking to be full of hope and happiness, something I didn’t expect quite so soon but it’s certainly a pleasant surprise.

I’ve already spoken to him about it all so it’s not like I’m announcing these sorts of things randomly in my blog!  That would be an awful thing to do, haha.

I’ll upload a couple of photos from the Barbeque today. Enjoy!

Jayne, Dad and Madonna.

Brothers' Fiancée.

Crazy scientist hair!

<3 DarkSlinky.