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I realise I haven’t been writing at all lately, and I guess it’s because I haven’t really had anything to say.  I’ve been stuck in a sort of limbo, not really knowing what I’m feeling or thinking.  It’s not necessarily a bad thing.  I suspect it’s because in the past 5 or 6 years I’ve spent most of my time attached to someone in a relationship, I never really had the chance to be alone.

Tonight I found myself in a situation where I was sitting at home by myself watching a movie and, strangely, I had no conversations going on MSN or steam or anything.  It was just me, with myself, and my thoughts.  I found it very amusing and gradually realised it’s not something I enjoy if it’s involuntary.  By that I mean, I enjoy being alone when I choose to be, but I find it unsettling when I’m alone for no good reason.  I’ve decided I’m going to have to learn to deal with it though, afterall, everyone needs to know how to be alone, right?

Anyway, I ended up bawling my eyes out while I watched Juno.  The first time I saw it, I really disliked it, but this time, I absolutely loved it. Go figure.  It’s like I didn’t really understand it before, and this time I made a real connection with it.  Haha, give me a break!  It’s my time of the month; I’m allowed to be an emotional wreck.

Speaking of which, it god damn hurts. Just so you know.  Today I got up at 6am, went back to bed at 11am, and got up again at 2pm.  I’m a drugged-up zombie.  I even walk around with a blank expression, drooling and moaning, pale as a ghost, looking for my pants.

Tomorrow I must make an effort to be less of a zombie, considering I have a job interview.   I’ve been applying for jobs for months and haven’t heard anything, and when I decide to give up for a week while I’m sore, I get a surprise interview handed to me on a silver platter.  What’s the moral of the story, you ask?  Give up, and take whatever is offered to you.  (Something doesn’t seem right here..?)  I really hope this interview goes well.  No doubt there will be a million other applicants, so I must try my very best to be an energetic and enthusiastic little zombie.

Starcraft 2 is awesome, by the way.  I’ve had a few matches against both bots and people and tonight was the first time I won against people.  It’s so much more fun when you actually notice that you’re improving.  (Does that even make sense? I’m so out of it…) I intend to continue developing my RTS skills.

Time to attempt to sleep.

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