DarkSlinky

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Haha, I didn’t realise that ages back my ex, or “the ex” as he calls himself, put a comment on my blog that required my approval for the public to read it.  He wishes to inform you good people of the fact he’s a bum around the house, he’s put on weight, his universe doesn’t revolve around me and I should grow up and get over myself.

Epic lol.  I kid, I kid!  I did take bits out of context, but you have to admit, it is a LOT more amusing that way, and possibly more truthful.  As the awesome Ray William Johnson would say, I’M JUST SAYIN’.

Nah, seriously, he wants you to know that, in regards to the blog entry entitled ‘Sweet Homicide‘, I interrupted his game, he wears singlets when he bums around the house and he was NOT flexing to impress me.  No, not at all.  Nuh uh.  Oh, and of course, his universe doesn’t revolve around me (universes don’t revolve at all, noob).  Well that I believe. I mean, it’s not like he still combs through my blog a year later to check what I’m up to or anything, and feels the urge to comment when I say something that may relate to him in some way, right?  …….. I lol.  Perhaps I’m not the one who should “grow up” and “get over themselves.” I mean, I never mentioned his name anywhere.  Is it just me, or is it a little arrogant to assume he’s my only ex?  I could have been talking about any of them. =)

All this is so trivial though, honestly.  These are the things that give me amusement, make me laugh.  People are funny things.  It gives me something entertaining to write about, so I’m certainly not complaining!

Speaking of people and the annoying things they do; I have a friend who recently got himself a girlfriend after 10 million years (so he implies, I think it was only about a year or two though) and has completely ditched me!  I do not believe it was because of the girl, I know her and I love her (perhaps a little TOO much…) but what the hell?  I would never have expected this from one of my close friends.  He’s away on a holiday so I haven’t spoken to him about it yet but I guess I will eventually.  I don’t think he reads my blog but if he does and if he knows it’s him I’m talking about, WHAT IS GOING ONNNN?!

In other news, one of my friends bought me Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare 2 because I’ve wanted it so badly for ages.  So far, I think it’s a great game.  I’ll be hyperactive in multiplayer and obsessing over it for quite a while, I imagine.  I also bought a stack of games when Steam had them cheap so I’m going to have to update my games list again.  Starcraft 2 comes soon too, YAAYYY! >.<

Today has been an awesome day though, seriously.  This morning I had a bunch of orchids (one of my favourite flowers, aah!) delivered to my door with the sweetest note from the man I refer to as my ‘Perth husband’, also known as Snags.  We clicked when we first met in person here in Brisbane and, now that I’m single again, things have continued to progress.  You may have noticed a change in my attitude recently and it’s purely because I’m hopeful and happy again and, like my close friends, he brings out the best in me.  I cannot wait to join my Perth friends in their home city for satay party times. (Note: ‘Satay’ as an adjective is not my word. It belongs to Snags, but I’ma use it anyway!)

<3 DarkSlinky.

I realise I haven’t been writing at all lately, and I guess it’s because I haven’t really had anything to say.  I’ve been stuck in a sort of limbo, not really knowing what I’m feeling or thinking.  It’s not necessarily a bad thing.  I suspect it’s because in the past 5 or 6 years I’ve spent most of my time attached to someone in a relationship, I never really had the chance to be alone.

Tonight I found myself in a situation where I was sitting at home by myself watching a movie and, strangely, I had no conversations going on MSN or steam or anything.  It was just me, with myself, and my thoughts.  I found it very amusing and gradually realised it’s not something I enjoy if it’s involuntary.  By that I mean, I enjoy being alone when I choose to be, but I find it unsettling when I’m alone for no good reason.  I’ve decided I’m going to have to learn to deal with it though, afterall, everyone needs to know how to be alone, right?

Anyway, I ended up bawling my eyes out while I watched Juno.  The first time I saw it, I really disliked it, but this time, I absolutely loved it. Go figure.  It’s like I didn’t really understand it before, and this time I made a real connection with it.  Haha, give me a break!  It’s my time of the month; I’m allowed to be an emotional wreck.

Speaking of which, it god damn hurts. Just so you know.  Today I got up at 6am, went back to bed at 11am, and got up again at 2pm.  I’m a drugged-up zombie.  I even walk around with a blank expression, drooling and moaning, pale as a ghost, looking for my pants.

Tomorrow I must make an effort to be less of a zombie, considering I have a job interview.   I’ve been applying for jobs for months and haven’t heard anything, and when I decide to give up for a week while I’m sore, I get a surprise interview handed to me on a silver platter.  What’s the moral of the story, you ask?  Give up, and take whatever is offered to you.  (Something doesn’t seem right here..?)  I really hope this interview goes well.  No doubt there will be a million other applicants, so I must try my very best to be an energetic and enthusiastic little zombie.

Starcraft 2 is awesome, by the way.  I’ve had a few matches against both bots and people and tonight was the first time I won against people.  It’s so much more fun when you actually notice that you’re improving.  (Does that even make sense? I’m so out of it…) I intend to continue developing my RTS skills.

Time to attempt to sleep.

<3  DarkSlinky.

The past few months have been quite difficult for me and there’s nothing that happens in the day that I wish to discuss publicly, so I shall continue to write about my recent series of vivid dreams.

I dreamt I was standing in the downstairs room of my neighbours’ house.  It was set up exactly as I remember it from when I was little; with a bed in the corner, TV on the bench and a number of large cupboards and dressers around the room.  Warm sunlight was pouring in to the cold room through the blinds.  A friend of mine, Alan, was standing there with me, looking into my eyes as he confessed his eternal love for me.  My heart felt incredibly warm but I told him I wasn’t ready for another relationship.  I leaned forward and kissed him before leaving through the front door of the house.

I was then at another friend’s house, but the house was similar to a house another friend of mine used to own.  I was standing in the lounge room in silence, absorbed by my own thoughts as I watched the darkness of night outside.  The three friends who live in the house were standing in the kitchen discussing some serious matters that didn’t involve me, so I decided I would have a shower before going to bed.

I walked into the bathroom, turned on the hot water in the shower and stripped off all my clothes with the bathroom door still open.  I stood there watching my reflection in the mirror as steam began to fill the room and I thought about how proud I was of my body and about how I didn’t care if anyone saw me.  I then heard two of my friends announce that they were going to bed which was in the room past the bathroom so I quietly closed the bathroom door, intentionally leaving it unlocked, thinking deviously that my third friend might decide to join me in the shower.

I then woke up.

<3 DarkSlinky.