I’m feeling very sleepy at the moment, but it’s been about a week and a half since I left Gavin and I’ve just realised the numbness I’ve felt for the past few months has started to fade.

I’ve started to really enjoy every day, simply spending time with friends and getting up to mischief.  Despite my parents being quite negative towards me lately, I feel very hopeful about the future.  I know the next few weeks are going to be really memorable with the opening of the Mana Bar this Saturday.

I feel motivated to find a job and get my house organised again.  I don’t feel so motivated to look into university but I think that’s mainly because my parents are discouraging me to enrol in the course I’m interested in, which is a Bachelor of Education.  My sister decided to tell them teachers have the highest suicide rate of anyone and I think my parents have freaked out.  I think they’re underestimating me though.  Teaching is something I’m passionate about and my background in Psychology would definitely come in handy.

Dad:  “Do you really want to be a teacher? I reckon it’d be a horrible job, dealing with kids these days… :\”
Me:  “Someone has got to do it. ”

I expect some days I’ll still feel down and unmotivated, but I’m so happy to be ‘feeling’ again; everything from happiness, sadness, anger, pain, hope, motivation, jealousy, amusement… the list goes on and on and it’s all great. (I just thought I’d list the emotions I’ve felt recently, quite random..)

<3 to all my friends who stuck by me despite my whinging over the past few weeks… Haha.

Time to pick up again.

I’ve also been enjoying getting to know my Team Fortress 2 clan, Pants Party, better.  Alex and I met another Brisbane member a few weeks ago.  In the coming weeks I’ll hopefully get to meet the rest of the Brisbane Pants Party guys as well as the few members who are flying in to Brisbane from various places in April.  It’s going to be so epic! >:3

I’ve realised the music I listen to definitely reflects the way I’m feeling.  The past few months I’ve been listening to Slipknot, Evanescence and System of a Down quite obsessively, but now I’m obsessed with Pendulum.  Check it ouuut:  Pendulum – The other side.

Lovelovelovelove!

<3 DarkSlinky.

Second pregnant man.

So, let me see if I understand this correctly.  Thomas was a woman who changed to a man, had two children to a woman, and is now having a third child to a woman who is now claiming to be a man.

Forgive me for being slightly confused.  I find myself worrying not only about the welfare of the unborn child and his siblings, but about the parents too.

I like to think I’m a fairly open minded person.   I don’t have anything against male changing to female, female changing to male, male with female, male with male, female with female, etc.  I don’t even mind female-turn-male with female and then with female-turn-male, but if I find it confusing at my age, how on Earth are they going to explain it to those poor children, even when they grow older?

I also find it kind of offensive that a ‘man’ can claim to have babies.  If you wanted to have a baby, why did you change to a man in the first place?  And if you really were a man, how the hell can you carry a baby?

In my opinion, either you’re a woman carrying a baby, or a man who can’t.

In other news, the cut in my mouth is healing, the sunburn is fading, I’ve been sleeping better, my resume is looking sharp and I got free credit for harassing my phone company every day.

I still have the feral cough, but it’s starting to get better, and I CAN use it to make a scene when I walk past smokers.  “Oh! *choke* I’m sorry! *cough* Allergies!”  I know, it sounds a little cruel but, honestly, I find smoking to be extremely unattractive in a lot of ways including smell and, well, it just looks ugly.  Besides, I enjoy messing with the public… especially in elevators.

You know, I really don’t know how I started liking Slipknot.  Their music used to disgust me.  I guess it was the same when I discovered System of a Down.  I heard ‘Forest,’ thought it was pretty good and things grew from there.  I’ve liked ‘Duality‘ by Slipknot for a few years, and recently I’ve started to like some of the other songs that I can relate to, like ‘Wait and Bleed‘ and ‘Everything Ends.’  You’d never guess my choice of music or my hobbies by looking at me.

Today I told Gavin I felt strange because I was crocheting and listening to Slipknot, which is funny, because a ‘slipknot’ is a type of knot you use in crochet.  He said I am the strangest girlfriend he’s ever had, and he loves it.  Achievement unlocked! -Frantic-

Also, I think we should all have a moments silence for Spirit, the rover stuck on Mars.

<3 DarkSlinky.