DarkSlinky

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I had another disturbingly vivid dream last night and I remember most of it quite clearly but I’ll probably write about that another time, I just wanted to do a quick update.

I’m feeling very sleepy at the moment, but it’s been about a week and a half since I left Gavin and I’ve just realised the numbness I’ve felt for the past few months has started to fade.

I’ve started to really enjoy every day, simply spending time with friends and getting up to mischief.  Despite my parents being quite negative towards me lately, I feel very hopeful about the future.  I know the next few weeks are going to be really memorable with the opening of the Mana Bar this Saturday.

I feel motivated to find a job and get my house organised again.  I don’t feel so motivated to look into university but I think that’s mainly because my parents are discouraging me to enrol in the course I’m interested in, which is a Bachelor of Education.  My sister decided to tell them teachers have the highest suicide rate of anyone and I think my parents have freaked out.  I think they’re underestimating me though.  Teaching is something I’m passionate about and my background in Psychology would definitely come in handy.

Dad:  “Do you really want to be a teacher? I reckon it’d be a horrible job, dealing with kids these days… :\”
Me:  “Someone has got to do it. ”

I expect some days I’ll still feel down and unmotivated, but I’m so happy to be ‘feeling’ again; everything from happiness, sadness, anger, pain, hope, motivation, jealousy, amusement… the list goes on and on and it’s all great. (I just thought I’d list the emotions I’ve felt recently, quite random..)

<3 to all my friends who stuck by me despite my whinging over the past few weeks… Haha.

Time to pick up again.

I’ve also been enjoying getting to know my Team Fortress 2 clan, Pants Party, better.  Alex and I met another Brisbane member a few weeks ago.  In the coming weeks I’ll hopefully get to meet the rest of the Brisbane Pants Party guys as well as the few members who are flying in to Brisbane from various places in April.  It’s going to be so epic! >:3

I’ve realised the music I listen to definitely reflects the way I’m feeling.  The past few months I’ve been listening to Slipknot, Evanescence and System of a Down quite obsessively, but now I’m obsessed with Pendulum.  Check it ouuut:  Pendulum – The other side.

Lovelovelovelove!

<3 DarkSlinky.

I realise I haven’t updated in a very long time.  This is purely because there has been a hell of a lot of stuff going on, most of which I can’t disclose unfortunately.

So I thought I would do a quick update.

Let’s see…

Mostly I’ve just been sorting out some relationship issuuuuuuues (mer, mer, mer, you know how it is) as well as job hunting, which has been unsuccessful, I might add.

I’ve been feeling pretty down about it all so I’ve been playing games with friends, studying Japanese and making amigurumi in my spare time to cheer myself up.  It does the trick most of the time.  I’ve also found a few nice hiding spots in my little neighbourhood if I need to get away and think by myself for a while.

I have pretty much decided I’ll go back to university to study a Bachelor of Education as well as Japanese on the side, next semester if possible.  I shall have to look into that…

Lately I’ve become a little obsessed with Quake 3 Arena and Poker.  Yep, I learnt how to play real poker!  I thought I would be crap at it but apparently I’m not too bad.  I just have to practise my poker face.

I’ll have to post pictures of my little amigurumi projects, so I can see how I’ve improved.  I’m currently working on a cutesie little Kirby.  <3

Tomorrow is going to be another crazy day, I know it.

Bring it onnnn! >:3

<3 DarkSlinky.

The past few days have been incredible.  It’s all happening!

On Sunday I was in a really foul mood due to the fact I didn’t sleep much, also because I’ve had persistent back pain since Thursday.  Apart from that, though, things are really starting to look up as my weekly routine begins to fall back into place after being disrupted years ago due to my feelings of worthlessness… </emo>.

Last week I finally got my phone number back, so I’ve gradually been recollecting everyone’s phone numbers again.  It feels great to be able to contact my friends whenever I want to, and for people to be able to contact me again.  Getting my phone number back also meant something else; I could finally start actively looking for a job again.

I applied for a few jobs over the weekend, but today I applied for a job at the place my niece has been learning to swim, and the place my sister recently got a job as a swimming trainer for children.  Within a few hours of me sending in my application, the boss called me and asked if I could come in for an interview on Monday.

I’m so stoked!  The job at this place wasn’t even advertised or anything, I just thought I would apply there and see what would happen.

So, I spent the day bouncing around and telling everyone I finally got an interview and it’s somewhere I’d not only feel comfortable, but I’d also feel passionate about the work I’d be doing.

I feel like a huge burden has been lifted.  Even though I still don’t know what I want to do about the university course I’m enrolled in, I feel like I’m a lot closer to finding the answers to my questions.

Getting to the ‘Interview’ stage of applying for a job has also substantially boosted my confidence, even if I don’t get the job.  It’s been years since I’ve had a job interview and it feels good to be back in the game.  The language and attitude the boss was using over the phone has given me a lot of confidence too; he seemed impressed and keen to meet me.

I’m very excited and nervous and I really hope this works out for me.

I’m trying not to get my hopes up too high, but that’s kind of tricky, as you can imagine.

This week I started teaching piano to my niece again.  Once I get this job situation sorted out I might be able to find more students, which would be great!

There is a wonderful man, my other half, waiting in my bed for me.  I think I shall go join him.

<3 DarkSlinky.