DarkSlinky

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Shame on me. I have been entirely neglecting my blog lately, but for a perfectly acceptable reason (not an excuse, I swear).

I quit my job because I got into university. Yay!

I am now a poor, unemployed university student studying a Bachelor of Applied Science/Bachelor of Secondary Education.

My degree eats all of my time. The time it takes for me to travel to and from university, attend classes and study is more than a full time job; somewhere between 50 and 60 hours a week, maybe even more.. This is the first night in a long time that I’ve actually stopped studying before 7pm!

You may wonder where so many hours are going – well, let me tell you! 80% of my time is invested in one particular subject, ‘Cellular Basis of Life,’ in which we were studying biochemistry in the first week. It is extremely overwhelming and stressful, but I’m managing. I was worried that I would struggle with chemistry but every biochemistry lecture is effectively just words plowing into the brick wall that is my brain. Chemistry is difficult, but biochemistry is off the difficulty scale entirely.

Actually, it’s kind of funny, because my chemistry lecturer will mention something, for example, a hydrogen bond, then will explain that we don’t need to understand it early on as it’s quite complicated. Meanwhile, in my biochemistry lecture in the hour before, we were told we are expected to know all about every kind of bond on a chemical level. I always laugh a little inside, in a sad and bitter way.

The other 18% of my time goes into chemistry, philosophical science and mathematics. That leaves 2% of my time for eating, sleeping and ‘me’ time (usually spent zoning out under a steaming hot shower).

I am completely exhausted, I come home every day with a headache, but I’m so glad that my life is actually going somewhere. I never believed I was good enough for science, yet here I am, understanding horrible words like oligosaccharide, polypeptide, hemiacetal…

In other news, a photo of mine was picked to be in a gallery for Youth Week. I am very happy, can’t wait to see it hanging up for people to see!

These are the 5 photos I sent in and they ended up picking the 4th one (first on the second row):

Hopefully I will be able to update more in the future but I have assessments due and mid-semester exams looming, so I will probably update in another… year….

<3 DarkSlinky.

I had another disturbingly vivid dream last night and I remember most of it quite clearly but I’ll probably write about that another time, I just wanted to do a quick update.

I’m feeling very sleepy at the moment, but it’s been about a week and a half since I left Gavin and I’ve just realised the numbness I’ve felt for the past few months has started to fade.

I’ve started to really enjoy every day, simply spending time with friends and getting up to mischief.  Despite my parents being quite negative towards me lately, I feel very hopeful about the future.  I know the next few weeks are going to be really memorable with the opening of the Mana Bar this Saturday.

I feel motivated to find a job and get my house organised again.  I don’t feel so motivated to look into university but I think that’s mainly because my parents are discouraging me to enrol in the course I’m interested in, which is a Bachelor of Education.  My sister decided to tell them teachers have the highest suicide rate of anyone and I think my parents have freaked out.  I think they’re underestimating me though.  Teaching is something I’m passionate about and my background in Psychology would definitely come in handy.

Dad:  “Do you really want to be a teacher? I reckon it’d be a horrible job, dealing with kids these days… :\”
Me:  “Someone has got to do it. ”

I expect some days I’ll still feel down and unmotivated, but I’m so happy to be ‘feeling’ again; everything from happiness, sadness, anger, pain, hope, motivation, jealousy, amusement… the list goes on and on and it’s all great. (I just thought I’d list the emotions I’ve felt recently, quite random..)

<3 to all my friends who stuck by me despite my whinging over the past few weeks… Haha.

Time to pick up again.

I’ve also been enjoying getting to know my Team Fortress 2 clan, Pants Party, better.  Alex and I met another Brisbane member a few weeks ago.  In the coming weeks I’ll hopefully get to meet the rest of the Brisbane Pants Party guys as well as the few members who are flying in to Brisbane from various places in April.  It’s going to be so epic! >:3

I’ve realised the music I listen to definitely reflects the way I’m feeling.  The past few months I’ve been listening to Slipknot, Evanescence and System of a Down quite obsessively, but now I’m obsessed with Pendulum.  Check it ouuut:  Pendulum – The other side.

Lovelovelovelove!

<3 DarkSlinky.

I realise I haven’t updated in a very long time.  This is purely because there has been a hell of a lot of stuff going on, most of which I can’t disclose unfortunately.

So I thought I would do a quick update.

Let’s see…

Mostly I’ve just been sorting out some relationship issuuuuuuues (mer, mer, mer, you know how it is) as well as job hunting, which has been unsuccessful, I might add.

I’ve been feeling pretty down about it all so I’ve been playing games with friends, studying Japanese and making amigurumi in my spare time to cheer myself up.  It does the trick most of the time.  I’ve also found a few nice hiding spots in my little neighbourhood if I need to get away and think by myself for a while.

I have pretty much decided I’ll go back to university to study a Bachelor of Education as well as Japanese on the side, next semester if possible.  I shall have to look into that…

Lately I’ve become a little obsessed with Quake 3 Arena and Poker.  Yep, I learnt how to play real poker!  I thought I would be crap at it but apparently I’m not too bad.  I just have to practise my poker face.

I’ll have to post pictures of my little amigurumi projects, so I can see how I’ve improved.  I’m currently working on a cutesie little Kirby.  <3

Tomorrow is going to be another crazy day, I know it.

Bring it onnnn! >:3

<3 DarkSlinky.