I’ve been having nightmares again, so I haven’t been sleeping well.  Last night was the first decent night’s sleep in a while, and even then I woke up halfway through the night and couldn’t stop coughing.  I’m surprised I didn’t wake Gavin up.

I’ve had this horrible cough for days.  I think it’s safe to say it’s a result of the sinus (or whatever it was) infection I had.  I probably caught it at Big Day Out last Sunday.

I also got really badly sunburnt at Big Day Out , despite putting sun cream on.  It was such a hot day that they had hoses spraying water out over the crowds to keep everyone cool, so I think all the sun cream was washed off.  On Wednesday my back was covered in blisters and a few days ago it started peeling.  It’s really quite disgusting.  Big Day Out was awesome though, so it was worth it anyway.

If you’d like a preview of what Big Day Out was like, there are a lot of pretty good clips on YouTube of different bands and stuff.  Muse was by far the best, though.  Here is a decent clip of them singing Stockholme Syndrome – Keep in mind I was up the front, just in front of the bigger screen on the right, which was also where the EPICALLY HUGE speakers were.  They played great songs.  I could feel the bass shaking every part of my body.  Delicious.

Unfortunately dermatitis has come up on my hands and scalp again, probably from stress.

A couple of days ago a big cut appeared on the inside of my gum (the side that’s under my tongue).  I suspect there may be a loose piece of bone under there (from when I had my wisdom teeth removed last year) that’s cutting through my gum.  I’ll have to go to the dentist to get it checked out if it doesn’t heal up.  I hope this cough goes away before then.  I don’t want to be coughing in the dentists face… it must be pretty gross being a dentist sometimes.

I’ve made countless attempts to retrieve my old mobile number, I still haven’t been successful.  It’s getting to a ridiculously frustrating level now.  I went as far as to submit a complaint to my phone company – Virgin – and I will definitely be posting my story on a few forums, although I won’t tell it here now.  It’s definitely getting its’ own rant.

Despite looking for a job, I can’t apply for anything until I get my number back because it’s my only direct point of contact apart from e-mail and I’m pretty sure employers aren’t going to contact me over the internet.  Not having a job and not attending university is giving me a sense of worthlessness and I feel really pathetic depending on my parents while I’m an adult.  I’m so financially strained at the moment too; it’s a terribly stressful situation.

Thursday was a good day.  I spent the morning cleaning Gavin’s car from top to bottom.  As a thankyou gift he took me out for dinner and then he bought me a pair of very expensive, leather, thigh-high, stiletto, Mollini boots I’ve had both my eyes on for a few weeks (I’m a lucky, lucky, lucky, lucky, lucky girl!!! >.<)

Boots to die for.

Thursday evening Alex came over and brought with him a Nintendo 64 game I’ve been looking for for years; Pokemon Stadium 2.  In most shops it’s worth $60 – $80 but he managed to get it for me for $45 which is great because I think the classic Nintendo 64 games are only going to increase in value now.  I found out my Nintendo 64 is worth up to $130.

Saturday morning I woke up feeling really under the weather after a bad nights sleep, luckily I had my wonderful boyfriend there to comfort me and give me sympathy.  He got out of bed and while I slept a few more hours he cleaned my house; bathroom, kitchen and lounge room before making a cup of lemsip for me to wake up to.  Thank goodness I have one less thing to worry about.

The rest of Saturday, Alex, Lynnette, Gavin, Nicki and I spent with Emma.  We hung out at her house for a while and had lunch at a nice cafe before it was time to travel to the airport to say our “See you laters.”  It was truly heartbreaking to witness.  Emma told us she was nervous and wasn’t ready to leave yet.  Everyone knew I would be upset so all their eyes were on me.  I couldn’t look at her for fear of bursting into tears, which I did as I watched her walking to the gate.  I hope I get to go see her in New Zealand this year, but oh, here comes the money issue again…

I’ve been really snappy.  I’m finding it increasingly difficult to trust people, whether they are friends or family, and I’m not exactly sure why.  This, in turn, makes me feel very alone, especially since I keep a lot of my troubles to myself.  I’m very good at putting forward a happy persona when it’s just not how I’m feeling.

I know it doesn’t seem all bad but it’s been a pretty rocky road and I just wish life would cut me a break at the moment.

The only thing I can really do is harden up and keep pushing forward; wait for my health to improve, see the dentist, sort out my phone number and then apply for jobs.  It’s important to focus on the positives, and I’ve definitely had a few days this week where I’ve been spoilt by my loved ones.

On a better note, Gavin spent this afternoon teaching me how to play Command and Conquer: Red Alert 3 and I really enjoyed it.  After a couple of failed games I managed to grasp the concept and got the ball rolling.  There was one point in the game that made me laugh…

Gavin:  “How are you going over there?”
Computer:  “Your enemy has been defeated.” (By yours truly!)
Jayne:  “Yeah, pretty good.”
Gavin:  “Oh, nice work.”

I also had a game with Gavin and Fen from Pants Party.  I think the boys found my noobness highly amusing.

Jayne:  “Oh, look!  There’s a cute puppy in my base!”
Gavin:  “He’s not on our team…”
Jayne:  “Oh, what?  Crap.”

Check out my awesome shirt.  Thank YOU SplitReason!

"Forget headshots, I aim for the NUTS!"

Yes, that is a bacon sticker on my head.

<3 DarkSlinky.

I’m happy to say I’ve been sleeping better.  I did have a nightmare a few nights ago, where we were fishing on a rubber tube thing, and my dad caught a fish so big it pulled us all in.  The water was opaque so I couldn’t see where the big fish was and I was absolutely terrified because he was angry at us for trying to catch him.  Other than that, my sleep has been undisturbed.

Liam finally has the internet.  Took quite a few dramas and phone calls to get there, but at least he has it now.  It’s good to finally have reliable contact with him, although it feels really bizarre to have to talk to him using mic in game.  I turn around to tell him something and he’s not there.

In more depressing news, the glass on the beautiful watch Liam bought me a while ago cracked and it’s going to cost $70 to fix.  First I have to pay for my last excessively large phone bill.  Stress, stress, stress!  It’s definitely time for me to go on Bean Counter!

I went down to target today with Liam and by chance we discovered that Webkinz have come to Australia, and they have Duck Jai ducks!  I sent mum a text letting her know they have Webkinz at target now and she bought me two Duck Jai’s to cheer me up.  I feel so special. XD

For those who don’t know, Duck Jai is a duck I got when I was little.  He was big and fat and I would take him with me everywhere.  Over the years I collected smaller Duck Jai’s as well, pretty sure I still have all of them here.  I definitely still have big Duck Jai.  Here are the three of them together:

Duck Jai

I’m looking forward to spending some quality time with Liam this weekend.  We will have been together for 50 months on Saturday.  I’m quite proud of it.

Before I part, I’ve been listening to a song I really enjoyed today:

Chicane vs Natasha Bedingfield – Bruised water (Remix).

It’s a cross between one of my all time favourite trance songs, Chicane – Saltwater and Natasha Bedingfield – I bruise easily.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Today was a really lovely day. Liam came over in the morning and we had lunch together and watched Bill Bailey’s show Tinselworm (thank you to Monique for lending it to me).  I ended up falling asleep, I was so tired.  I think I definitely prefer Dylan Moran’s comedy over Bill Bailey.

I had to go back to see the doctor about my mouth.  She said it’s healing nicely, after which Liam and I had dinner overlooking the water at Redcliffe.  It was freezing so cold so we then went back to my place and watched some more of Season 3 of The IT crowd.  Hopefully he’ll have the internet within the week so we can keep in contact a little easier.

I’ve just been working on a little surprise for my mum.  She had a box of photos sitting in her room ages ago and I offered to sort them out.  Tomorrow I’ll surprise her by giving her a photo album one of my siblings (can’t recall who) bought her a while ago with her old photos in it.  Hope she likes it.

My parents are much better by the way.  I think they got the vibe that I was getting irritated, because they haven’t been nagging as much and they’ve been giving me a little more space.  Thank you to everyone for the support, I’m feeling much better.

My sister, Kerri-Anne, and her daughter, Jade, will be here tomorrow taking care of Nanna.  I’m looking forward to seeing her.  I might have friends over for games tomorrow night, but we’ll see.

Soon I will begin the arduous task of looking for a job. Hopefully I’ll get the job I want down the road.  I won’t specify what it is but it’s monotonous and brainless, so I assume, which is what I want.

Time for some tea I think.

<3 DarkSlinky.

Emma

Jayne-Louise

On the 20-07-2009 I got my 4 wisdom teeth surgically removed.
This is a photo of me straight out of hospital.

3 weeks later and my mouth is still sore on some days.  All the stitches came out about a week ago and I can feel all the scars along my gums.

I go back to see the doctor tomorrow – make sure it has all healed okay.

<3 DarkSlinky.

It turned out to be an incredibly interesting game. For my gamer friends out there, I have a funny story for you.  I was heavy, «PP» X1 was my medic with kritzkrieg and while we’re waiting for it to be ready I was defending the cart.  He says, “Go Slinky, go!” so we run out and, alas, I’m out of ammo. My heavy whips out a sandvich and starts eating in the heat of battle while we have kritzkrieg.  “Slinky! SLINKY, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Oh I laughed so hard.

«PP» X1 helped me break 100 points for the first time on a payload race map (forget what it was called?)  Total points:  104 – yay!  I did try and take a screenshot but I think I pushed the wrong button, damnit.

Personally, I prefer uber to kritzkrieg because I don’t die straight away, but I’m getting better.

I’m getting so much closer to the achievement ‘Hardcore’ and it’s very exciting.  I might even get it tonight.

Liam will soon have the internet so I’m looking forward to being able to talk to him more often and play games together again.  We spent a few hours today playing Super Smash Bros. Melee and DragonBall Z Budokai on gamecube before he had go to work. Fun times.

My university deferment is on its way, although I discovered I may have to go to the doctor so I have proof that I’m deferring because of sickness or sick relatives.  Last time I checked you didn’t need to have a reason to defer, but my university’s website sucks so badly.  Next step is to e-mail them, and then maybe I’ll go see them tomorrow and be like “WHY IS IT SO COMPLICATEDDDD?!?!?!  Help mee preeeease…”

Two weeks ago I got my 4 wisdom teeth surgically removed. The last stitch in my mouth came out yesterday, which means I’m nearly fully recovered.  Yaaaayyyy for chewy food and biscuits.

Right now I’m going to go and try some new tea I bought (honey and lemon, rosehip and hibiscus and cranberry, raspberry and strawberry – YUM!) and catch up with an old friend.

<3 DarkSlinky.